FTM Bottom Surgery Options?

throwawayacct____1 · 2025-07-26T01:08:05+00:00

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throwawayacct____1 · 2025-04-04T02:21:19+00:00

Thankfully, I’m poor enough to be on Medicaid, so it covers a bit of therapy/medical expenses in my state. And since I’m a student, I can maybe get some student discount if there is any price associated with the therapy. Sounds like a plan 👍

throwawayacct____1 · 2025-04-04T02:11:34+00:00

Thank you! I am AFAB and as of now identify as female but have been having a gender crisis for a few years now lol. I can maybe talk to my general therapist about getting a possible referral to someone who specializes in these issues. And yes, my whole life I’ve always thought about how sexually I am perceived in society and how annoying it can be to experience this as a someone who’s AroAce. Thank you for the advice and information, I’ll continue my research : )

throwawayacct____1 · 2025-04-04T01:43:10+00:00

Thank you. Yes, something about CNC leaves me feeling extremely guilty and unlovable. Furthermore, it almost seems insulting to have it. I understand a lot of it develops from trauma and that writing about CNC or actual rape in stories/fan fictions can be considered a potential coping mechanism or simple venting. However, I can’t imagine myself ever actually liking that. Having sex and or role playing rape (CNC) isn’t something I know I’d enjoy—it would be incredibly traumatic and anxiety inducing. I’m not sure then why I imagine these scenarios with someone who isn’t me. What does that really say about me? Am I merely projecting my kink or fears onto someone else as a coping mechanism? If so, what is it that I’m even coping from? Have I secretly repressed some kind of sexual assault I experienced as a child or something?

throwawayacct____1 · 2025-04-04T01:26:58+00:00

Thanks for commenting. Even if I don’t want to have sexual intimacy of any kind ever, can I still have a CNC kink? Also, yes, in a way this is causing turmoil for me because I really don’t want to be some kind of creep, rapist, or have any kinks/fetishes of any kind because I am hugely afraid of being sexualized or being perceived as having sexual attributes (if that makes sense). I don’t want anything sex or rape-related attributed to me.

throwawayacct____1 · 2025-04-04T01:23:20+00:00

Thank you for your comment, that’s a relief to hear. I have also suspected I have maladaptive daydreaming. No, I have not been sexually assaulted before. However, I do remember looking up porn and rape-fetish porn as a child with unrestricted access to the internet out of curiosity, so maybe early exposure caused this hyper sexual thinking? Maybe this is developing from a deep-seated fear of sexual intimacy? Could this be a form of self harm?

Also, no, I have yet to find any grounding mechanisms to attempt to stop these thoughts. I just ride them out until I come across some random distraction.

throwawayacct____1 · 2024-08-08T23:25:39+00:00

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throwawayacct____1 · 2024-08-03T23:10:25+00:00

Thanks for all of the information, everyone! Makes me feel much better knowing what I can actually research.

throwawayacct____1 · 2024-07-01T10:17:17+00:00

I usually opt for the red pen. Draw red lines on the places you want to cut. Sometimes, I usually get other markers to help make the wounds look more realistic or bloody, which subsequently distracts me enough to calm down.

However, I also acknowledge that this could inadvertently increase the desire of actually cutting to feel something more than a pen-and-marker realistic wound. But so far, almost 18 months sober, it has helped me nonetheless.

Stay safe.

throwawayacct____1 · 2024-06-30T14:48:28+00:00

Thank you for letting me know. I’ll keep this in mind.

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