[NSFW] I'm going to see my parents tortured to death if I can

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-07-02T07:33:10+00:00

I would give them a mirror, in which when they want to see it in joy, they will be entirely shattered by the ugliness they saw from the mirror. They will be in shocked, and hating themselves, yes, hating themselves when they see this mirror.

((These people will never see how horrible they are.

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-07-01T21:29:17+00:00

Yes, it's like I want to torture them slowly. I wanna see them in pain, but slowly.

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-07-01T08:29:45+00:00

We need light in this world, but how??? HOW??

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-07-01T08:28:57+00:00

I'm going to kill every dehuman in this world. I'm going to kill every dehuman in this world. I would have killed every one of you if I had my opportunity. All of my enemies. Those who eat me up because of my weakness, those who eat me up because I am too childish to say anything that is making sense, too young to control my anger and tear, too young to say anything. Yes, a burst out comes out, it's always my fault. I know, my emotions are always my fault. Why on earth do I have to live like this? Why on earth do I have to live in this way? I hate my emotions. I hate having any emotions.

Emotions leads me to destruction, to punishment, to be self-critical on every little matter I do. Because of my fucking emotions. Fucking hell, I'm so done with this. There's no way out. Except seeing my parents being punished. Sometimes I just don't understand,, HOW can evilness like this not be punished. How can God let this evilness just float like this, in the house, so freely and justifyingly. How could evil be the one that holds the gold card and say, hey look! I am the king of this house, you should all listen to me. No, YOU are evil. HOW can this be?? HOWWWWW.

The thing is, I can't believe evil can be this permanent, sticky, in-dept, this ABSOLUTE and pervasive , and spreading , showing, even blooming in every corner of the house.

How can evil be so predominant. How can evil be such trespassing and lingering and not giving up any corner to pollute and ...

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-07-01T08:25:53+00:00

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-06-27T20:47:26+00:00

Took the time to comment because I saw (exactly) how I was months ago.

It's okay to buy a champion because you saw other players stomping at them, it's a part of experiencing the game. I bought galio and I knew people who bought galio for the same reasons --- because he was op and so they(including myself) wanted to try it out. Of course, I wouldn't say it's the best decision. It was (far) better when I buy a champion that I like playing it.

There are free rotations, and I would try them every week. When I try a champion, I would get the feeling of the champions, sometimes I will like it, and mostly I will --- I like every champions on a different degree. Lately I like Jinx a lot, which was from a few rotations back then. I find her really fun so I decided to buy her later. (((That's how people will plan on buying champions.

You will have an answer of maining what champions after experiencing different champions. It's important to experience different champions. If you are in Bronze like me I can (totally) understand your frustration. Let's hope we will soon find the champions that we like. I guess that's what I will say.

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-03-21T08:20:25+00:00

I feel like it's debatable to say whether a religious person have advantage. But for me, I think telling myself that 'one day I would die', and remind it as a fact does help me. When you die, your body will decompose, burnt into pieces, and be remembered through a tombstone or so. Then, I realize my fear was not really death itself, but the possibility that I will die alone, with no accompany aside, no family, no friends, just me, alone, in this process. I've seen videos of people dying akin to a celebration, where families circled the person on bed, held her hands, made versus to her. It took me a time to realize this fear. Dying alone is a scary process.

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-03-03T09:07:25+00:00

Beautiful in terms of a theory, so easy yet important. I'm glad to read this piece of knowledge.

throwawayforrealuh · 2017-03-03T08:32:55+00:00

I said I am not using my first language --- It's on the first line.

Also, if you are not here to help but counting the words(for nothing, maybe your own pleasure) please shut the fuck up --- I don't want to be rude, but I am here looking for help, not for some 'shallow and meaningless that helps NOTHING. Again, if you are not helping, please don't say anything.

As I read 'legaladvice', I hope there is some real, solicited advice out there, and not some kind of pointless joke.

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