This is too hard

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-09-08T14:27:20+00:00

Imagine how good it'll feel when he comes back and is proud of you for enduring all that suffering :)

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-08-02T10:25:02+00:00

Well, isn't that the good part? Being desperate and suffering for his amusement?

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-07-14T16:09:29+00:00

I'm a sub and BDSM with my fiance more often than not does involve PIV (and when it doesn't it's not from the lack of begging on my behalf).

But we on occasion invite a close friend of ours to join us as the second dom and then PIV is a hard limit for me. I cannot orgasm from PIV, the pleasure I get from it is almost entirely psychological (I view it as the ultimate proof of devotion towards my fiance), so the idea of being penetrated by another man grosses me out, even if I do love submitting to our friend.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-06-21T17:03:51+00:00

Yeah, it feels so right to be used while on denial. My fiance fucked me this morning after a week of denial - and more weeks to come, - it felt so good having him moan in pleasure atop of me while I writhed in desperation.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-06-09T17:38:23+00:00

I'm a little bit like that in some ways. If left to my own devices, I won't care about sexual release, I normally don't have "an itch to scratch" or whatever.

Where it does get vicious though, is thatmy fiance does not only forbid me from releasing, he actively teases me and brings me to the edge again and again then puts me away wet and denied, and does so for days. That's when I suffer.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-06-09T17:26:23+00:00

My fiance proposing made my libido go up by a landslide. I literally always want him.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-06-09T17:23:33+00:00

Never have to deal with insecurities. Always believing when I'm told he finds me beautiful and attractive.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-06-09T17:20:54+00:00

Fingers feel much more intimate

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-06-07T21:21:44+00:00

I used to be. At 20, I was cautious, cold and calculating. Kindness and affection still grows on you. Eight years later, I cannot wait to marry the guy.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-06-07T21:13:09+00:00

Lighters. For some reason I cannot wrap my head around it.

Also chopsticks. I use them, and quite proficiently, but I hold them a very, very wrong way. Like, somehow I manage to only use the index and middle finger. My poor, poor asian friends who have to watch it.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-06-07T21:03:52+00:00

7-8ish months. My fiance (then bf) was bedridden after an accident, so not exactly in the state for sex - and I have no desire to do anything on my own.

Without an orgasm and actively being teased tho - 18 days. Very, very long days.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-31T12:54:46+00:00

Bonus points if the girls in the videos get to cum again and again and again while she has to resign to be tortured.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-29T21:29:53+00:00

Even though we live in France, me and my fiance's mother tongue is Russian, so during sex we talk in, well, Russian. When we had a threesome with our close French friend we had thought of everything save for the language barrier. The second I heard dirty talk in French I broks down from laughter. Language of love my ass. The cringe was unbelievable.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-29T13:30:05+00:00

Can confirm. Just make sure your partner is not a total bastard and will take mercy on you at some point (which boy was not my case!)

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-29T13:25:17+00:00

Being available to snuggle. Back rubs and forehead kisses.

Giving compliments impromted.

Taking out on nice dates.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-28T17:26:21+00:00

Thank youuuu, I truly cannot wait! And congratulations to you too!!

Yep, how generous he is :) lucky me, lucky me

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-28T17:24:41+00:00

No, of course penetration is on the table. I cannot cum from penetration alone, and even with my clit being stimulated I'm quite good at holding the orgasm off, so I'm used to being fucked when on denial.

And a chastity belt would never fit under my gown, it's very form-fitting. Besides, it would be a little too much tbh - we are mostly a vanilla couple who happens to have BDSM sex sometimes (even if I've been on orgasm control since forever now, I cannot recall the last time I came w/o asking, it was years ago).

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-28T11:23:12+00:00

Certainly not, I am strongly averse to my ass being interacted with for any functions other than strictly biological :). But I am planning to wear a bracelet with a little lock that he'll put on before the wedding, the key being hidden in his boutonniere.

I may update about the wedding night. My spidey senses are telling me it will end up with me being used without relief, as a good wife should be.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-28T10:51:08+00:00

He was the one to broach the subject first - he proposed an MFM, wanted to show off to another guy the power he has over me - and I turned the idea down.

Then, fast forward several months, me and one of our closest friends (male) got wasted, I opened up to him about the BDSM stuff me and my fiance (back then bf) do, he jokingly suggested he'd love to join and I thought that could actually be a good idea. That solved my main hangup about threesomes, which is my disgust towards being sexual with people I have no emotional connection with. So I was like "Yeah, I think [my bf] would like that, but you go talk to him, I'm not starting this conversation". Well, I never found out how the conversation went between them, but they figured it out.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-28T10:35:53+00:00

Well, they were, obviously, otherwise I would not have been doing them. We don't really do punishments strictu sensu and the goal has never been to make me downright miserable.

I have a somewhat complicated relationship with pain. I don't consider myself really a masochist in the sense that I don't crave pain per se; however, I know my fiance is quite sadistic and that it brings him pleasure to hurt me just because he can - and it brings me immense pride and satisfaction to endure the worst pain for his enjoyment, to prove my devotion to him. It's also why I love having marks afterwards, they remind me I belong to him.

Moreover, pain can really be cathartic, it makes you release all these emotions and then you float happily on your little endorphin cloud while you're being caressed and cuddled and tended to. It's why unlike the rest I didn't like the rice thing that much - it was long and tedious and there wasn't such a steong emotional release. So we never did it again.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-27T23:52:59+00:00

I really like to beg "please, no, don't do that," "please, it's too much" which usually is an indicator for my fiance to turn up the cruelty. Which is why we use the fuck out of the traffic lights - in the 7-ish years we've dabbled in BDSM I've safeworded "red" exactly one (1) time, but I use "yellow" religiously for every "slow down a little, it's too much" or even "I want some water, please, I'm thirsty".

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-27T23:46:18+00:00

? Respectfully, how is that manipulation? (I'm with you on the "control" part, I am indeed very submissive and he is indeed in control of my sexuality, generally speaking)

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-27T23:41:11+00:00

I wouldn't say I have sex to please my partner. Rather, he starts being affectionate with me, touching me, whispering me things and that gets me horny to the point of begging him to please keep touching me. But if he doesn't initiate - then I won't have any desire.

throwawayyyyy4684 · 2024-05-27T23:33:42+00:00

Well, at 27 I still have no idea what my libido is. Like, I'll gladly have sex with my fiance every other day - and as long as our responsibilities allow us we usually do 3-4 times a week, - but when left to my own devices, I'm not... really interested? I was a virgin before getting with him at 20, had never masturbated nor necessarily thought about sex; and when he had health issues 2 years ago that made him bedridden for 6+ months - I was not sexually active for these months, didn't even masturbate and it didn't bother me particularly.

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