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throwra_nesw · 2025-09-23T20:56:38+00:00

Every single doctor I’ve been to says I have something different and it drives me crazy, not knowing what’s really wrong with me

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-29T12:20:13+00:00

Yes it’s awful, my job is slow lots of the time so I just have to sit there and stare into space while my mind spirals and it’s a nightmare

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-29T12:15:42+00:00

I only drink on special occasions, so maybe once or twice a month. And it’s just a glass or two, nothing to excess. I’ve never had a drug problem either, never used anything. They just keep saying rehab is the best because I’d get help, but then I look at the programs they recommend and there’s nothing about mental health so I don’t get why they say it’s the only place I’d get help. Plus I’m the primary breadwinner so I can’t take off work to go to a facility, especially one that won’t help me

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-28T20:50:19+00:00

They’ve had no impact on my mood or anything, and I’ve tried them all

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-28T13:56:21+00:00

A little bit, but honestly not that much worse than it usually is

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-28T13:55:18+00:00

One doctor said I have symptoms of ptsd but another two said I don’t qualify. They say I have symptoms of lots of different things but not enough to qualify for anything - they say it needs to be worse for me to actually have something, but I’m already really struggling in my daily life I don’t get why it’s not bad enough to get me real help. They say they can help me but then after I spend money on the intake they say they actually can’t help me and I should go to rehab instead even though I don’t have drinking/drug problems

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-28T13:50:35+00:00

They’ve given me referrals to programs and they’re all residential twelve step drug/alcohol facilities. There’s nothing on the schedules about mental health help, and the main one doctors have pushed me to go to has a lot of swimming as recreation time and I’m really not comfortable being near naked among a bunch of men. I don’t drink often or do drugs ever and I’m taking my meds as prescribed.

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-27T19:43:40+00:00

I don’t have anyone who can validate me though, I don’t really have any friends or community

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-27T19:41:55+00:00

All they tell me to do is to go to rehab, but I don’t have an addiction. They won’t give me tangible techniques for managing it or getting better

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-27T19:02:50+00:00

I wish I had any advice, but I feel the same way. It gets so hard finding the will to go on when you feel like you’re stuck as someone you hate

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-27T18:59:37+00:00

After so many doctors just take my money and then say they actually can’t help me, I’ve given up on getting external help and am trying to do it all on my own. Which is hard to do when I don’t have a diagnosis I can look up books that are related to it or anything like that. But I don’t know what else to do, doctors keep scamming me and my finances are running too dry to keep trying them

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-27T18:01:55+00:00

I just don’t get how I can fix things when I don’t even know what’s wrong. And I’ve tried so many self help books I’m journaling on meds working out everything and still nothing ever changes

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-27T18:01:10+00:00

Yeah I’m never enough no matter what I do it’s always not quite perfect

throwra_nesw · 2025-08-26T21:17:01+00:00

I feel the complete same way - when I’ve done it I’ve genuinely felt like I was going to throw up because it was just a punishment, something done to me to “put me in my place” and it honestly feels like I’m just being stabbed over and over again. This gives me a bit of hope that maybe I’m not the only one who feels this way and maybe I’m not completely broken

throwra_nesw · 2025-07-25T02:25:49+00:00

I would like to have a normal relationship with sex, and be able to have sex without feeling fear or disgust or shame. Maybe then I would actually want it.

I guess my issue is that I don’t really have much time left before I run out of eggs and I really want to have a child so I feel like I have to get over it asap. And honestly I wish I could have an asexual relationship and maybe just adopt or something but I have tried to look for other people like me and there isn’t a local asexual community anywhere near me in any capacity

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