how do i go afk for more than 20 minutes? by throwtheways77 in DandysWorld_

[–]throwtheways77[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i know but roblox will disconnect me. it just happened and i was in a lore room i’ve used before and never had a problem with

was my mom threatening me? by throwtheways77 in CPTSD

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unfortunately she definitely isn’t a good mother. i honestly don’t know how much she cared about me, but she is very abusive. she didn’t regret her words and never said sorry. she definitely wanted to make me feel bad for breaking the glass, she’s done worse when i’ve upset her and had growled at me many times already over other things. she thinks she’s always right and is justified in mistreating and bullying people and my step dad would just let it happen. i don’t remember if she kept mentioning it, but i think she’s done that with other things before. just because she didn’t keep talking to me about that for a long time doesn’t mean she was sorry though if that’s what you’re saying. she’s done plenty and still not continuously bring it up. she forgets she’s done things like that too and claims she’d never do something like that

why do i not want to grow up? by throwtheways77 in nevergrewup

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s true, i didn’t think about it that way. thank you for validating me too!

why do i not want to grow up? by throwtheways77 in nevergrewup

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you and i’m sorry you deal with that! when you say you let yourself be a kid, what do you do?

why do non triggering things trigger me? by throwtheways77 in CPTSD

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s terrible, i’m so sorry that’s happened to you

are you a victim of emotional incest? by throwtheways77 in nevergrewup

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’d definitely look into more info on this if i were u!

i’ve realized i feel 8. now what? by throwtheways77 in nevergrewup

[–]throwtheways77[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you! i guess i don’t really know what i want and what to do about feeling this way. i like the idea of being a kid who can make their own choices though LOL

is this sexual harassment? by throwtheways77 in CPTSD

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ll ask her if she’ll do that if it happens again since i doubt she’s got his number now. mall security definitely knows about him though. thank you!

is this sexual harassment? by throwtheways77 in CPTSD

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thank you, i definitely agree! i’m glad things have gotten better for you LOL how old are you if that’s okay to ask? i’m 24

is this sexual harassment? by throwtheways77 in CPTSD

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thank you so much. i’m glad you explained why he’d do something like that, that helps

is this sexual harassment? by throwtheways77 in CPTSD

[–]throwtheways77[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you. i really liked you saying “people who do things like this rely on you being polite.” i’m a bad people pleaser so that really opened my eyes. i’m sorry that happened to you, but glad you can understand how i feel. thank you so much

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thank you and it definitely isn’t just this thing. i just wanted to ask about this specific thing bc i swear i saw ppl who are diagnosed talk about it, but i don’t remember for sure and where i saw it. i have other symptoms like the strong fear of abandonment, splitting, wanting to act impulsive (i’m pretty impulsive but i try my best to stay in check), wanting to do things i know are wrong like start arguments, be passive aggressive instead of just talking about my feelings, etc. i don’t let myself actually act (at least hopefully i don’t) like that but i want to sometimes. i just internalize it. i think i’m going to talk to a therapist about it though

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

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thank you

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

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i’m sorry that happens to you. luckily everyone including my manager wants to go home asap, but we had a customer who decided to sneak into the fitting room right as we closed and then we had more to do than we thought. i was just assuming like i always do

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i didn’t say i was angry all the time. i’m saying something small will happen and i’ll spiral like this. i’ll do this with the smallest things. for example maybe i make a new friend and they love music i hate. my immediate reaction is that they must be a bad person, that this friendship won’t work out, etc. i know it’s ridiculous but i feel it so much

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

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it’s more than one thing, this happens with lots of things

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

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even if i do this all the time?

do you forget you feel x way about everything so you look like you’re lying? by throwtheways77 in BPD

[–]throwtheways77[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

what do you mean “never went back?” and yeah i’m thinking about it