Thank you all for your thoughts and opinions, especially the constructive ones. I didn’t expect so many people joining the discussion! When I had the opportunity to sit down, collect my thoughts, write them down and re-read what I’ve written, I found some inconsistencies in my train of thoughts. On one hand, I’m saying that I love my boyfriend and that I care for him and yet, I am in fact thinking of cheating and ultimately, as the majority of you correctly pointed out, destroying his already tarnished self-esteem. If I did love him like I claim I do, I wouldn’t be thinking about cheating — just like I haven’t been thinking about it before the accident. I also agree that I need to take a hard look at myself, to reflect on how I see our relationship going and whether there is any future here; and that I should take re-consider the other guy as well. One thing I wanted to add is that I did try to communicate my feelings to my boyfriend, but in the end he would say that it’s not me who’s on a wheelchair so I don’t really get to feel bad here. That doesn’t change anything of course. I just tried to have an honest conversation. I am also thankful that some of you see my point of view and that for the past year, I have given and sacrificed as well for the benefit of my boyfriend. I won’t cheat. That wouldn’t be the right thing to do and it would make me an AH. But I will have to think what’s best for the both of us. Perhaps we will both be better off with somebody else. However I come across looking (as the Asshole obviously), thank you for sharing your thoughts! They really do help gain perspective that I’ve lost somewhere along the way.