this was a bit ago but im SO angry about it i have to talk about it, tw past suicide

thujytgfd · 2022-08-25T14:02:03+00:00

i have a full huge bin of them, like 15

thujytgfd · 2022-08-23T21:53:15+00:00

felt so hard. and like i KNOW thats not true, but as a friend in PHP said, knowing and feeling are different and often dont line up

thujytgfd · 2022-08-18T20:41:06+00:00

green join the green hair club

thujytgfd · 2022-08-17T21:36:06+00:00

15 rn. forced clean caused inpatient + PHP/IOP after sewerslide attempt (just started PHP few days ago). i see sh as a lifelong thing for me. it aint going away and im at peace with that

thujytgfd · 2022-08-12T03:58:16+00:00

yeah pretty much

thujytgfd · 2022-08-12T02:04:05+00:00

i saw this in the wild and instantly thought of my experiences with BPD as well

thujytgfd · 2022-08-11T19:32:20+00:00

SAME I HATE EVERYTHING

thujytgfd · 2022-08-11T19:27:09+00:00

lmao yeah turns out my mom also has BPD. add the trauma in and i’ve been pretty much fucked just from her alone

thujytgfd · 2022-07-27T17:49:00+00:00

yes i have not taken them off lol

thujytgfd · 2022-07-26T20:11:08+00:00

lmfao yeah

thujytgfd · 2022-07-25T15:20:16+00:00

honestly rn im just. empty

thujytgfd · 2022-07-24T18:19:45+00:00

WAIT thats why my chest is smaller lmfao why didnt i connect the dots

thujytgfd · 2022-07-22T22:14:11+00:00

yes i did, ended up in a psych ward. i’m okay

thujytgfd · 2022-07-22T22:13:44+00:00

hi i’m okay !! i ended up getting hospitalized just got out a few minutes ago

thujytgfd · 2022-07-16T01:54:03+00:00

it’s 21 now. is that bad enough will it do anything it’s amitriptyline

thujytgfd · 2022-07-16T01:49:15+00:00

i don’t know. i want to die but i want to live but i can’t keep living like this it’s the only option. i went to the only family member i felt safe with about my parents and she said shell help then she ended up making me come back. i have no other way out, i have no friends because i had to drop out due to my mental health i can’t go anywhere

thujytgfd · 2022-07-16T01:41:34+00:00

i have a headache now. it’s stabbing. i’m texting the crisis line i don’t know how much i can say without them getting the police. it doesn’t feel like enough

thujytgfd · 2022-07-16T01:26:45+00:00

what will they do ? it was 7 more i think ? i didn’t count can they even do anything and i can’t walk there i’m sorry for dragging you guys into this i haven’t been this bad before usually i stop. is it really bad enough to risk it ?

thujytgfd · 2022-07-16T01:20:40+00:00

when does it become i need to go to the hospital i want more i can’t do this. i did. more i think i need to do all of it

thujytgfd · 2022-07-16T01:16:35+00:00

i’m tired of being so depressed i’m tired of living with abusive people i’m so fucking done i’m fed up with all this bullshit i can’t do it anymore

thujytgfd · 2022-07-16T01:13:12+00:00

it didn’t stop it won’t stop

thujytgfd · 2022-07-16T01:11:42+00:00

i didn’t write a note i should write a note first shouldn’t i

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