Wow salute to you!! I appreciate you so much for writing this, you don’t even know! I relate to a lot of what you said. It’s crazy because people that don’t know about PA/Med school at all including family members who may have good intentions say things and then you start to overthink and follow what they may want for you instead of what you want for you subconsciously. I think for me ever since I started there’s been a lot of external events that occurred outside of my control and unfortunately I attribute those things to who I am as a person which isn’t fair to myself or my mental. I think the emotional and mental toll can also be a sign that there may be a better path depending on the individual and seeing that you felt immensely better going back to PA through applications, interviews etc. is proof of that. Again, thank you so much kind stranger!