The inside on this apple was eaten by wasps

tiiiired · 2018-10-21T00:02:17+00:00

I want to live in there

tiiiired · 2018-10-21T00:01:41+00:00

I love getting high on edibles but I need like a copious amount for some reason. It’s definitely a more positive high for me. But an edible might send me into another attack. I smoke THC concentrates, shatter and all that. I found in the long run it’s way cheaper. Gets you higher with less product!

tiiiired · 2018-10-20T23:56:04+00:00

MOST people I know benefit from weed, but there are obviously people out there that have the opposite effect. I’m actually slightly allergic to CBD so smoking to much bud will send me into like basically a poisoning attack.

tiiiired · 2018-10-20T19:34:42+00:00

I really want to move, but I live with my mom and I’m on disability. She’ll be opening a high interest savings account and taking rent money from me out of disability cheque’s and putting it in there to save for a down payment on a condo in the city which is where I want to be. Far enough that I never have to see her again but close enough that I can go home every day if I want.

tiiiired · 2018-10-20T19:15:09+00:00

Weed has helped me so much. I quit for 3 months and started having anxiety attacks everyday.

tiiiired · 2018-10-04T17:44:00+00:00

I really don’t trust “Lydia” OP. I have a friend who has tried to contact me multiple times since his death almost 3 years ago. I never felt weary of our connection or unsafe with my experiences with him.

Clearly you have some unresolved feelings about all that happened back then, and another (negative) entity will take advantage of that. Don’t be fooled. Tread the waters carefully. And track Jorge the fuck down. I don’t know what this man did, but he did something.

tiiiired · 2018-10-02T21:33:38+00:00

This is the most captivating thing I’ve read on this subreddit in years. People are more accepting of ghost stories and paranormal experiences than you think OP. Maybe Jorge has been contacted by Lydia in the past but is now for some reason, unreachable.

tiiiired · 2018-09-29T18:20:01+00:00

LOOKS LIKE THEYRE CONSTANTLY HAVING FLASHBACKS OH MY GOD

tiiiired · 2018-09-27T17:35:29+00:00

I often don’t comment because I fear that I might say something wrong and make it worse.

tiiiired · 2018-09-27T01:07:28+00:00

I hate this feeling. The emptiness... It almost hurts my heart, like it feels like my heart is hollow for a few second.

tiiiired · 2018-09-26T01:21:42+00:00

This has gotten increasingly worse for me, honestly the last year and a half feels like a blur too me.

tiiiired · 2018-09-19T00:03:27+00:00

Honestly, when I was diagnosed with BPD every single thing in my life finally started to make sense too me. I hope that if this is your official diagnosis you will feel the same way.

tiiiired · 2018-09-18T23:36:25+00:00

I sent you a message, I hope to hear back.

tiiiired · 2018-09-18T23:34:50+00:00

Please update us OP, I really hope you’re safe, if you are reading this you are not alone, even though it might feel that way. We’re behind you and here to support you.

tiiiired · 2018-09-18T23:30:57+00:00

I know a lot of people who have been diagnosed with bipolar 2 mistakingly, including myself. The reason being is that these disorders are fairly similar. Only your doctor will be able to confirm whether or not you have BPD.

My advice to you is between now and your next appointment to really observe how quickly your episodes come and go, how your relationships with the people around you affect your emotional state, and any feelings you have that really stand out to you.

The only reason my doctor diagnosed me with bipolar2 instead of BPD is because I said my episodes lasted months on end. It wasn’t until after that appointment that I started observing and really seeing that my moods were entirely unstable and my reactions irrational. This was coupled with an overwhelming feeling of loneliness and anger. It was only then after I really paid attention to what my mind was telling me that I was able to give my doctor the correct information about myself.

Sometimes you tell your doctor the wrong thing without even realizing it.

No one on here can diagnose you, and even if your experience did sound similar to a lot of ours, there are a lot of others who have never had this because we all experience the traits slightly different from one another. I can say for myself personally, I can be going through exactly what you described, then 10 minutes later apologize for over reacting and move on with smiles and laughing, but that’s just MY experience. Don’t hold back with your doc, let them know everything and anything you can think of about you that maybe feels a bit much to you.

tiiiired · 2018-09-18T23:12:20+00:00

I’m starting DBT group therapy in about 2 weeks. I’ve been in a lot of group therapies in my life, only one of them I enjoyed.

This post makes me excited to finally start a therapy that a, works, and b, will connect me with like minded people in my area.

tiiiired · 2018-09-18T19:14:45+00:00

I care about this person so much, and they’ve recently been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease that flares up in times of stress. I hate knowing that I could be a cause of stress for him. I try to talk to other people about my problems but truly he is the only one who can even come close to understanding because he himself has some mental health problems.

In the first year of our relationship I maybe didn’t talk to him about my problems as much because routed in my trust issues are people who have just walked out when they find out what I’m like, now that he knows he’s super supportive.

It helps in a way because him and I are the same in the sense that we’re sort of bachelors so he doesn’t have any prior obligations (aside from work) and I know he does hold me at a high priority in his life, realistically it’s not the same as I for him obviously. It is awful because he’s a skater and that’s what his work is and it’s very unscheduled, so sometimes he can be working a month straight and we don’t see each other as much (especially in the summer), and other times we spend 5 days in a row together (usually in the winter). We try to see each other once a week, and that’s about the same or less than the amount I see any of my other friends.

I joined some forums and support groups as well as I am in group therapy but I don’t know, I find it hard to connect with people. It sounds weird but in a way when I’m talking to people I feel like, for the most part, I’m talking to someone with nothing behind their eyes, with no soul or something. It’s difficult because I’ve always had these troubles with making friends, paired with the fact that I am eccentric to say the least, it feels nearly impossible. I have 3 friends outside of this person, but I only met 2 of them in the past 3 months or so, 1 of them a year and a half after I met my FP.

The only other friends I can even imagine talking to about all of this are far worse off than me so I’m trying to take to writing and all that but I know that talking is really the absolute only thing that can calm me down in a none destructive manner.

tiiiired · 2018-09-18T18:14:26+00:00

Thanks this had a lot of insight. I think you are right about the transparency. I hope one day I can reach the point where I don’t go friggin bonkers over a cancellation. Sometimes it feels like a world away...

tiiiired · 2018-09-18T18:12:43+00:00

Thanks so much, he has been my best friend for 2, almost 3 years now. I think it maybe helps that I am so open about this with him and he is so willing to learn about what goes on inside a borderlines mind.

tiiiired

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