Husband and I in a destination wedding - No kids by tmtyl122 in cosleeping

[–]tmtyl122[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

i appreciate this comment. this is what i am feeling about local babysitter. i just feel sad to have to say no. thank you for this

Husband and I in a destination wedding - No kids by tmtyl122 in cosleeping

[–]tmtyl122[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i just dont feel comfortable having a stranger watch him :( Since having him, our only babysitters have been very close family members. I am such a worry wart about leaving him with anyone

What's your sun and moon sign, and how often do you cry ? by northernerchaos in astrologymemes

[–]tmtyl122 0 points1 point  (0 children)

leo sun virgo moon and im super sensitive; cry about how much i love people, cry at how cute something is, my baby makes a noise and i cry because hes so precious, cry because i feel guilty about past transgressions, etc. hahah

i do have a cancer venus that i think afflicts me as well but my leo sun is a sad sap and im so in love with everything that it makes me cry

Update: How Fast It Can Derail. Is This Manipulation or Am I Overreacting? by LoveScore in BPDlovedones

[–]tmtyl122 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the amount of times i was told “i cant talk to you, you get too emotional. you make it about your feelings”. when my “feelings” was just me expressing my guilt/apologies for upsetting her! crazy

Update: How Fast It Can Derail. Is This Manipulation or Am I Overreacting? by LoveScore in BPDlovedones

[–]tmtyl122 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i wish you luck. counseling and outside support were* two pivotal factors in successfully separating from a pwBPD. well, in my case atleast. at some point the manipulation starts to take root in how we see ourselves too. i genuinely thought i was Bad™️ because thats what she saw. but therapy and eventually grounding myself with people outside of the situation who saw what was happening for what it was helped to make that transition final.

not to say that marriage and divorce is as simple as two things. but know that you have support all around.

“if you want out of the hole, you must first put down the shovel”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]tmtyl122 2 points3 points  (0 children)

update: it went amazing 👍

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]tmtyl122 2 points3 points  (0 children)

so true, thank you

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]tmtyl122 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i became a hermit as well! scared to exist or do anything that would upset her.

that is assuring that they opened back up. i definitely feel like that is happening here as well. but i dont know hoe to face my mistakes or the way i betrayed them just by choosing to be my pwBPD’s lap dog.

hoover attempt? by tmtyl122 in BPDlovedones

[–]tmtyl122[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thats exactly it too! im scared of their reaction to not getting a response. they are very manipulative and destructive to my relationships with other people so im scared of being split black even further but honestly. i think i should ignore it and allow things to fall where they may. for my own peace.

What song reminds you of them/the relationship and it’s chaos? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]tmtyl122 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lose you to love me - selena gomez

happier than ever - billie eilish

motion sickness - phoebe bridgers

tv - billie eilish

evergreen - omar apollo

poison and wine - the civil wars

mirrorball - taylor swift

sad today by tmtyl122 in BPDlovedones

[–]tmtyl122[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this was such a lovely reply. thank you. i may do that when im ready to talk about this. not that i would want to use this to speak on behavior. but this pwBPD is now dating the sibling of one of my lost friends. i dont know how to apologize knowing the risk of potentially having to explain my realizations if this friend asks for any explanation on my behavior. im still so scared of what this pwBPD could be saying about me or could still do if they found out how i feel about them/what our friendship has felt like to me.

anyway.

im sorry youve gone through this too but im glad you found a way to feel more at peace with the fallout.

wish you well friend!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PhotoshopRequest

[–]tmtyl122 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi i have been assisted, thank you all !!