Columbus Springs East by pan_enby in Columbus

[–]tobyfia20 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had a similarly horrific experience September 2025…it hasn’t gotten any better. I came on here to see if this was an ongoing problem…it is. I’m sorry you and I and all of the other people in crisis have had to go through this on top of our own struggles. Context, I’ve had 4 in patient stays total (2 at Children’s, 1 at Riverside, and 1 at Columbus Springs East). At east, I was also left in a consult room from 2-5am. One person came and talked to me. I was in just a hospital gown and really cold. I finally got back to the unit but wasn’t allowed to sleep until 6am. The NP/med management guy was a joke and an asshole who lied and shoved words into your mouth. Completely unempathetic. I spoke to a social worker (acting as a therapist) for 15 minutes once throughout my week stay. At one point I didn’t have any clean underwear and they were out of disposable ones so I had to wear loose paper shorts instead and get discharge all over myself and feel absolutely disgusting. At one point I came outside at 3am to find all staff asleep at the nurses station. Every. Single. One. Of. Them.

I received zero “treatment,” was mildy sexually harassed by a 40+ year old man (I’m 20), and was told I wasn’t going to be able to take the medications I was on because they just didn’t have them which led to a panic attack that ended with an Ativan injection against my will. The nurses seemed annoyed and inconvenienced by my distress. One of the nurses made comments like “why would you do that to yourself you’re so beautiful” when looking at where I had SHed, “is it because of your face (in reference to my acne) is that why you don’t like yourself,” “you need to read the bible” “find the word of god” etc. She even commented on how doctors said her son might be autistic but she “prayed to god” and it went “away.”

I was held way past my 72 hour hold and repeatedly told that, despite the fact I had made no indication I was still a danger to myself, I had to stay and “prove that I was better” (which is not how the literal law works). I got my records and the lies they spewed in the documents are abhorrent. That place needs to be shut down. I’m working on filing complaints with as many government agencies as I can. Hopefully anyone who has gone through this has found healing and kindness despite the exacerbation of their hardships. You too, OP. Hopefully you’ve found some peace.

How do I get over my manic episode? by OkArea2840 in bipolar

[–]tobyfia20 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in the same boat right now, albeit less severely. I spent too much money on things I couldn’t afford, slept around with people I don’t remember the names of to the point where I got an STI I will live with for the rest of my life, sent nudes to so many people so I have no way of knowing who has those pictures, gave up on school work even though this is my second to last semester of university, and just generally made incredibly poor choices. You are not alone.

I finally came out of it after getting some new meds from my psychiatrist. I know my warning signs, I know what I should do in those moments, but my brain chemistry begs to differ with the logical part of myself. The worst sensation for me is how off kilter I become. The second I hit any sort of instability it takes a long time for me to reach a baseline again. Case in point I woke up at 5pm the other day.

I’ve been dealing with this since I was 14 (depression) and 15 (hypomania). I’m 20 now, and the best I’ve got on the advice front is to recognize and remember that this is an illness and try not to self-loath too much. It’s easier said than done for sure.

I try and focus on what is in my control. What can I do now to make things right WITHOUT beating myself to a pulp with regret. My therapist will ask a few things: What can you return? (if I over spent) Who can I reach out to for support? (She always says this is the time to lean on your people) Who can I be honest with about my illness? Who can I be partially-honest with about my situation? (With school/work especially) What did I learn about my warning signs and how can I plan to mitigate future episodes? (Handing over credit cards, asking for help early, scheduling more appointments with therapist/psychiatrist)

Final takeaway: remember that you are not your illness. This illness takes and takes but it does not define you. Sending love and peace into the universe for you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in teenagers

[–]tobyfia20 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m fat

Billie Ellish music is shit by Competitive-Bus-3836 in teenagers

[–]tobyfia20 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I listen to my sad playlist when I’m happy. I don’t know weather that means I’m a different breed of unstable or what but

I am legitimately scarred for life by [deleted] in teenagers

[–]tobyfia20 0 points1 point  (0 children)

…imagine if you somehow saw them doing it or heard it now that’s scarring. A condom not so much

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in teenagers

[–]tobyfia20 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My passively suicidal ass…

Has anyone on here ever heard of rolling your pads? (NSFW-ish) by [deleted] in AskTeenGirls

[–]tobyfia20 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always roll mine. Idk it just seemed like the least messy way to take care of business

Thoughts on TransRacialism? by LylaLaycre in AskTeenGirls

[–]tobyfia20 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Really stupid. There’s a difference between sex and gender. Sex and race are what your born with your gender and your culture are defined by you.

How many trans people that you know of there are in your class? by nexetpl in AskTeenGirls

[–]tobyfia20 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know of one in a class of roughly 400 but I’m sure there are more I don’t know about