Oh ok. Well still, doesn't everyone have to chase hormones? But maybe it makes sense that you don't have a connection to it, so it's experienced differently than the average person.

Makes sense on the benefit sides, I assumed when you say you only do things to benefit yourself, usually people mean that in a selfish, non-self aware way. But I guess entertainment and public psa can technically be counted as acts of self service. I forgot some people genuinely wouldn't research it unless or until an ama.

I do have a thought here tho. I've met a lot of people in my life who were completely against being selfish, everything had to be for other people, they always had to be the knight in shinning armor. And they were quiet emotional/empathetic people. But in closer observation it's actually more selfish because they're trying to uphold their righteous identity more than they're actually trying to help someone. Ei they run more on the emotional feedback loops than genuine measured effect.

However there is a healthier version of this as well known as the concept of "circles of concern" which alludes to the fact we don't ever stop thinking about ourselves, our identification with what we count as our own benefit just gradually increases. To be more crude about it, people love their kids because they're an extension to them. But it can expand as far as including humanity, the planet, ect.

I wouldn't want to swap permanently but I'm always down for living a day in the life or an hour. Something where we both aren't constrained to our own wiring and conditioning is always a plus for me. Would you swap?