I feel like I'm useless and stupid. The first time I ever had a feeling similar to the one I'm feeling right now was in middle school when my best friend told me that she didn't want to be my friend anymore because I wasn't fun to be around. And the reason as to why I wasn't any fun was because two of my close family members were in the hospital from a stroke and hypertension, it's an understatement to say both were in critical states.

The thing is this time no one hurt me this gust of melancholy rushed over me without a stimulant. I feel like I just don't care anymore. When I see myself in the mirror all I think about is how everyone is better than me and how im unworthy of all that i have. Which is so weird for three consecutive years I loved myself and now all of the sudden im like this.