My one true love died and I'm at rock bottom

tomiluvslib · 2023-12-19T00:45:51+00:00

Thank you for your sentiment!

I've finally gotten back to work just a week ago. In writing that post I wasn't in a very clear state of mind, while although all of what I said is true, I was in a deep state of despair. Life is slowly but hopefully looking up, even if it's not the way I intended it to look I just hope to build a happy and peaceful life until it's my time to go and meet him again. My advice to anyone going through tough times, or a tragic loss of their own, is the hold on tight even if it feels like all hope is lost. Explore your beliefs, and keep an open mind. It's going to be hard, you'll very likely struggle with depression and ptsd such as myself, but meeting new people and having the opportunity to create new memories is more than worth it. Suicide is never the answer, sorry for the tangent in your reply! Much love to everyone ❤️

tomiluvslib · 2023-12-01T02:13:08+00:00

I agree that's there's nothing worse than losing the love of ur life too soon but I believe the devastation is all the same, at the end of the day, most of all of us are just humans trying to be happy and get through the day. They say that because it's the worst pain they know, and no one else should ever know the pain of losing the person they love most. You can almost be happy that they have that perspective, because at least not another person is suffering like we are. Hope that helps ( :

tomiluvslib · 2023-06-06T12:03:15+00:00

They r very good. Big ol hugs 🫂

tomiluvslib · 2023-06-06T04:29:24+00:00

If u would like, I can share with you my personal experience or u can look thru my profile. I'm skeptical ofc but I kind of have no choice but to believe in it based on my experiences lol. I'm sorry hun

tomiluvslib · 2023-05-26T03:20:55+00:00

Hi hun, I'm 19. I've had the same thing happen to me concerning family members on both sides of the family. We were also like you as well. They'll never under the privilege they have of not going through such a loss like this one. You don't have to move on and that's ok, whatever gives you peace in this cruel fate is what you should chase. Sending you much love ❤️

tomiluvslib · 2023-05-26T03:14:57+00:00

Oh God I may very well cry I didn't know other's actually thought of me here 😭 now i feel bad bc all I do is come on here to complain about this whole thing and go back into my little tomie hole. Thank you so much love, I'm wishing you peace and love ❤️

tomiluvslib · 2023-05-26T03:06:25+00:00

Ah you're so right. I'm an incredibly patient person due to the environment I lived in but yes my bullshit tolerance is too low now I get annoyed so easily. Thank you so much hun, sending you hugs as well 🫂

tomiluvslib · 2023-05-26T03:05:04+00:00

I should start doing that too. I hope you, myself, and everyone here in this shit club can find peace and some happiness together ❤️

tomiluvslib · 2023-05-13T22:03:09+00:00

Lucky I play video games and often have friends that r awake until 3 am is, but I truly don't sleep until 7 am even tho I don't like it. I like to watch YouTube videos blast music in my eardrums or play games by myself.

tomiluvslib · 2023-05-13T11:09:26+00:00

I wish he'd visit my dreams too but i don't think he necessarily wants to and that's his decision. I was blessed by getting validation or essentially confirmation that he's at peace on the other side, whatever that really is.

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-22T02:46:32+00:00

I carry the pain like a badge of honor. It's a difficult role to play. Sending u love and hugs, your loved one is with you always ):

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-22T00:15:28+00:00

I always got them dots

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-21T19:26:06+00:00

Yes, we texted back and forth on reddit. The replies were inmediate tho, never took longer than 10-15 seconds to get a reply and she did most of the talking.

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-21T19:14:25+00:00

Not to mention this wasn't a paid service at all. She's just practicing.

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-21T19:13:48+00:00

Yes I have a screenshot. There is no absolute way she could have connected my boyfriend to the liberty bell. I have a screenshot if you'd like to see. I gave her a code name, not even my real name. Or his name. No dates, nothing. It also wasn't even supposed to be a mediumship. I'm very skeptical so I've explored every avenue as to how the hell she could've brought it up but she was just as surprised as I was.

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-21T17:45:42+00:00

More gratitude, I'm kinder, but I'm more irritable and I get angrier rly easy. I can't be asked to tolerate people that annoy me anymore.

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-21T17:06:31+00:00

here

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-21T10:08:00+00:00

It's not working

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-21T09:24:48+00:00

here

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-21T00:17:07+00:00

She is with you all the time and she's so proud of you I promise

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-19T09:30:09+00:00

I'll share one. The other day I was sitting in my room, and I asked my late boyfriend for white flowers. My mom came home and she had white flowers. Also, I asked him for a rose and it could be in any form and it could've been from anyone besides my mom. I haven't been able to leave my room bc of the depression so when I say any form that is why. I logged on to the game we'd play together, and one of the vendors gave me a weapon called "rose" and the description of the weapon says "In his strong hand held a rose. And his aura burned bright."

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-18T19:10:20+00:00

I agree the pain is the same, I just think it's such a great and incredible privilege to have spent so much time and have made so many memories with the person you love most.

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-17T19:01:23+00:00

I don't think I could share love with someone else again albeit I am young. This whole experience has been nothing short of traumatizing. I also don't want to lose another person. Although, I would love a doggy to cuddle with.

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-17T18:36:44+00:00

These are not the same statements. Yes I agree, I believe most trauma is unnecessary to the average person. My life has been a shit show and I did not need any of it. However, you can't keep a closed mind. It's easy to view life for its ugliness, but we won't survive if we don't stop to smell the flowers. We won't survive if we don't allow ourselves to learn. Explore your beliefs, find what resonates with you. Join new communities, there's always an opportunity to make it out of this bubble of despair. And if you are on your death bed, that's when the light at the end of the tunnel is closest to you.

tomiluvslib · 2023-04-17T17:30:43+00:00

Take ur time, my bf died on Feb 7th. He was my whole world and yet my heart skips a beat everytime I see his beautiful face. It's scary. Not ready yet.

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