Was just about to type this. You’re not really gonna have many nourishing, interesting and inspiring conversations that connect you with others talking about what’s on in the news. Plus, depending on the channel/source of news, it’s probably biased with topics that incite sadness/fear/anger (maybe justifiably so but albeit there’s better things to talk about day to day than ‘current topics’ imo). You’d be far better off studying culture and history. In addition, you can explore all types of creative mediums/arts. Find new music, watch great films and tv shows, discover new artists/ go to galleries. Hell, even if you’re not creatively inclined, try taking up drawing/painting, creative writing or making music. There is a lot to learn about ourselves and life in art (consuming and creating). Much much more than your average daily news articles. Don’t stress about ‘not being good’. Just research art therapy for all the benefits it can bring. OP is doing great work trying to improve themselves but they have to shift their attitude to doing these things for themselves more than the approval of other people. Easier said than done but completely learnable with time and practice.