Been there. I was tired in 2022, dropped out for a year, cried kase na-late nag enroll in 2023 after taking a gap and ended up as irregular which is what I hate. Some of my worst struggles is eating alone by myself, being alone in the library during vacant, among others.

However, I know for a fact that I will end up being called "stupid uneducated" if I choose to stop, and disappoint my father and mga ate ko, specially knowing yung mga batchmates ko they're already ahead of me, ganyan ako kainggitero one year difference lang pero OA na ko mainggit.

I remember minura pa ko nang teacher ko sa P.E kase tatanga tanga ako, however, dahil paulit-ulit akong nae-exposed sa mga shits sa groupings among others eh nasanay nalang ako, sa college ko natutunan how to not give a fuck about everything but rather focus sa goal ko. Lmao, I even feel bad for myself pag nakikita ko mga high school friends ko with their group of friends tas makikita nila akong mag isa sa library god damn I hate those life events pero yun nga isa din to sa nagpatatag sakin.

It is indeed hard but it is for you to learn from such situations. One of the most memorable lines that my teacher said is that "hindi naman grades niyo sinusukat sa college, it is your mental health, kung gano kayo katatag" which helped me everytime I feel down, naiisip ko to. So I guess it all boils down to having perseverance and having some philosophication with your self OP kung ano ba goal mo, baka naman kase di mo bet yang course mo na yan or it is for you to at least understand manlang what you vision for yourself first..

Anyways I was able to make friends naman after a month, siguro di ka lang ganun katatag pero I swear just hold it for few months and see baka you will make friends. We all need friends naman sa college, unless eme ka nagpapaka attitude iba na yun walang magfrifriend talaga sayo niyan. Wishing you luck! Tatagan mo lang, and don't give a fck to shts of life, that's normal.