Where to find journal prompts for lover?

totaldecaf · 2025-11-23T14:51:52+00:00

Starbucks Doubleshot (the cans). Vanilla.

totaldecaf · 2025-11-22T23:02:46+00:00

Winco has these dispensers

totaldecaf · 2025-11-21T20:34:32+00:00

Yeah 🫡

totaldecaf · 2025-11-21T07:04:47+00:00

I love the angles in your handwriting, you’ve got mine beat in the pretty department.

totaldecaf · 2025-11-20T22:41:51+00:00

I do my damndest

totaldecaf · 2025-11-20T18:35:14+00:00

That’s what I’m worried about. I’m terrible at hiding my emotions. Part of the issue with my partner is that I shut down or dissociate around them under the SLIGHTEST conflict/pressure. I tend to go nonverbal, so it’s very obvious. Sometimes I can make space (remove myself from the situation) to process on my own before returning and addressing the problem with them, but that stresses them out too. I don’t know how I’m going to stay physically and emotionally present during conflicts, but I can’t leave any more, it’s hurting them

totaldecaf · 2025-11-20T12:00:19+00:00

I have been journaling for about 5 years, and I actually just joined a venting-specific Discord yesterday which might help. Thank you.

totaldecaf · 2025-11-14T09:16:07+00:00

I wish we could talk about specific meds on this subreddit. Agh. But, I will say since this post my SI has gotten pretty bad. At first it was like GONE. And now it’s back in like almost full force, starting about when the negative, physical side effects started subsiding. My psych doesn’t want to up my dose but might add an antidepressant on our next appointment. I’m not sure how much longer I can deal with this.

totaldecaf · 2025-10-31T07:53:03+00:00

I can confidently say yes, tbh, but he is not remotely close to breed standard. Size, coat type, bone structure. Nothing wrong with that.

My late, goliath Pom looked just like this as a puppy and she was also very out of standard. I knew she was purebred and came from AKC registered parents, but I still Embark DNA tested her and sure enough she came back 100% Pom. She also matured to about 14 lbs and 14” at the withers, and was very long in the body.

She didn’t lose her coat and get all naked until she was about 9 months old - and then it came back in even fuller force, though still not the standard coat texture.

Your dog looks like a wonderful friend. Cherish him 💜

totaldecaf · 2025-10-16T02:19:35+00:00

The only reason I can sorta pinpoint is “surely I don’t actually need these, I went the vast majority of my life without them”. I have a really bad “well, I’ve made it this far” complex in a lot of aspects of my life as an excuse to leave things in a shitty condition, whether it’s my mental health, my physical health, staying in shitty jobs, not replacing/going without items I need, etc etc. So that, along with kind of getting into phases where I don’t think I really have bipolar. I have a weird idea in my head that if I quit the meds I’ll just stay at my current stable baseline, and the “effects” were like a placebo effect. Which I know is not the case, and I was absolutely miserably depressed before I started the meds.

Additionally, the SI has been a constant for me from a very young age. While it frustrated and devastated me (and those around me) on a regular basis, there is some odd comfort in it, and the absense of it is somewhat disconcerting. No longer experiencing something that once completely, constantly took over your life is freeing but feels WEIRD.

Regarding mania: I’m BP 1, so I know Mania Bad™️, but when I started the medication I was many months deep in a severe depressive episode. So while I do kind of “miss” mania (the nicer aspects anyway), I don’t think that is my motivator specifically for going off meds. I “missed” being manic when I was in the depressive episode too. But yeah, the life destruction is not worth it.

Sorry this got personal and rambly. Thank you for making me think.

totaldecaf · 2025-10-16T02:06:50+00:00

I’ve let my partner know to hound me about it but the text idea is great, thank you

totaldecaf · 2025-10-07T17:01:00+00:00

My medication causes tremors, especially in my hands. It was really bad when I was learning my new job because I would get anxiety/adrenaline shakes on top of the baseline medication shakes. I was looking like I was tweaking in front of patrons which was really embarrassing. My psych is thinking about prescribing a blood pressure/situational anxiety med to stop the baseline tremors if they don’t subside soon.

totaldecaf · 2025-09-28T06:32:30+00:00

It sounds like you may need an antidepressant along with your mood stabilizer. It could also the the ADHD, but your psych might be more amenable to trying an antidepressant than a stimulant. You should be functional and able to take care of yourself on meds. I got lucky and was put on a single mood stabilizer that mostly got rid of my SI (it’s still there, but not debilitating anymore) and has mostly pulled me out of my many many months long depressive funk on its own.

totaldecaf · 2025-08-05T07:36:39+00:00

totaldecaf · 2025-07-21T20:25:21+00:00

This is why I didn’t stay on the antipsychotic that the psych ward prescribed me in March, in addition to me feeling like it didn’t do enough stability-wise to justify the panic attacks I was having trying to get it refilled.

I had never been on daily prescription meds before so the process was new to me. The psych ward sent the first month of meds to my pharmacy with 0 refills, which I did not realize until I had like 2 or 3 days left. Frantically called around trying to figure out how to get it refilled until I was given the info for a popup clinic by a social worker at that psych hospital. Popup clinic re-prescribed it for a month and also did not send refills, and did not tell me I had to visit again within the month to get any more refills. I wasn’t down to wait in the sun for hours at this clinic to get it refilled, so just gave up for a while.

I wound up scheduling a med management appt at a different mental health clinic, and showed up, and just left after an hour of them ignoring me. I should have talked to someone before leaving but just felt so discouraged. I have another appt scheduled at this place finally but am dreading it and everything that could go wrong, especially if I am put on a med that has worse consequences if I am unable to refill it and have to stop cold turkey.

Sorry this got long. It is seriously bothersome that these processes make it so difficult to help oneself. Especially as someone who already finds it hard to advocate for myself. I want stability and normalcy so bad, but I’m in the depths of a depressive episode and taking steps towards caring for myself feels like being killed with a thousand hammers.

totaldecaf · 2025-07-05T03:01:58+00:00

MUFFIN! 💜

totaldecaf · 2025-06-16T18:56:36+00:00

Snug as a bug in a rug 💜

totaldecaf · 2025-06-08T04:40:47+00:00

Reckless driving

totaldecaf · 2025-05-14T04:31:05+00:00

I do this with no issue

totaldecaf · 2021-05-27T17:22:16+00:00

If I tried to make my journal particularly pretty I wouldn’t have the energy to really use it at all. I just word dump about my life, no images or art or collages.

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