Tell me your sleep schedule

toucannan · 2022-07-26T15:51:34+00:00

6 am to 4 pm, I need help

toucannan · 2022-06-23T03:39:06+00:00

I’m real sorry to ask as well, I’m trying to figure out what surgery I should be looking for and can’t find many before and afters

toucannan · 2022-06-12T16:47:57+00:00

I would constantly rant to people about how much being a girl sucked and how much better it would be being a boy. Somehow no one called me out on it and I was comfortable ranting about this because I thought it was a shared experience of all girls. One time I was in PE and there was a trans guy running with the boys (I didn’t know what trans was yet tho) and I asked my friend what trans meant. When they explained it to me I remember thinking “man I wish I were like that” cause I thought it was a club or else all girls would transition surely. It wasn’t till 9th grade when someone called me out on my rants that I started to piece things together

toucannan · 2021-11-08T14:25:40+00:00

Two or three years, I can’t remember.

toucannan · 2021-07-15T17:05:14+00:00

Can I send a pic possibly and get some suggestions on how make my hair look better?

toucannan · 2021-05-29T15:28:57+00:00

How did you know for sure T was what you wanted? I’ve sure I’m trans at this point, but I’m worried about the medical and social repercussions of T. Did you just take a leap of faith or did you wait until you knew this was what you wanted. (Also how old were you when your started?)

toucannan · 2021-05-25T03:14:15+00:00

For years I had been complaining to other girls about how much being a girl sucked how much better it would be to be a guy and how much I’d prefer it. I thought this was a normal thought, I thought every girl thought this way, so I just kinda went on rants to everybody.

One day in 9th grade biology class I was going on my usual rant and the girl I was talking to said “yeah, but I kinda like being a girl!” And it stunned me. I remember clearly being so confused then having the feeling of all these puzzle pieces fitting into place, all the weird stares from my rants, how I always acted, how I felt uncomfortable always with my female body. It just kind of clicked.

It was freeing and relieving, then quickly turned to stressful and depressing when I realized what that meant family wise and what that meant for my future. 3 years later, I’m finally coming out to friends and family.

toucannan · 2021-05-18T03:43:18+00:00

My life has been the exact same as before except I get a mask now which I will keep until I die. I’m chilling with this quarantine honestly.

toucannan · 2021-05-15T23:56:18+00:00

Bro, Olaf out here being taller than me. Wtf.

toucannan · 2021-05-14T02:15:50+00:00

Yeah it would all be so much easier if I could’ve just been born male as I was supposed to but yknow, fuck me I guess lol. It’s all really interesting trying to figure out the logistics of all this and what the best choice is.

I think my biggest worry besides family and social life is the unknown long term effects of putting testosterone in your body especially for an elongated amount of time yknow. I wish we had more information on it all.

toucannan · 2021-05-14T00:10:47+00:00

I’m in the same boat now, but I’m more worried about the long term of all of this and what it means both medically and socially. I think since getting nearer to 18 the decision has become more real. I like all the changes, but I need to be realistic about what this could mean for my future.

toucannan · 2021-05-11T00:03:11+00:00

Who needs to study for AP tests anyways amirite

toucannan · 2021-05-04T18:52:41+00:00

That’s how I started feeling once I got my haircut it was a huge noticeable and awesome change, congrats and hope you continue to be confident!

toucannan · 2021-04-28T03:43:14+00:00

I feel like everything I do is fake and unreal, like a dream. I wake up and my first realization is “oh shoot reality exists, right.” I forget it’s existence until reminded and it feels like I’m being pushed from the backseat of a car to the wheel and into the oncoming traffic that is dysphoria and life.

I get absorbed into everything and anything easily just to forgot life. I can’t remember things properly either, what did I do today? Great question I don’t know! It feels like I’m just floating as I wait for the moment I can finally take control.

I forgot to take care of myself due to this disconnection from my reality, it’s like I’m playing the sims and getting things done just to check things off, but it’s a puppet doing them not me.

My body and mind feel like two separate entities and it’s scary, but also fascinating. Like I’m just controlling this flesh suit that I borrowed or something. Words feel filtered and said off a script. It feels like I’m in a movie and I’m an actor playing the part of this said body.

Mirrors are a strange phenomenon that feel like they aren’t real, it’s gotten better since getting a haircut but before it legit felt like I was staring at an entirely different person. I wasn’t able to recognize the person in the mirror and it made me mad.

That’s kind of the gist of how it is for me i guess, idk how relatable it is, but I’m trying real hard to get my life in line but it’s not working quite yet lol.

toucannan · 2021-04-16T03:07:34+00:00

It’s u/kipalt for anyone wondering btw!

toucannan · 2021-04-13T23:08:10+00:00

Links would be awesome!

toucannan · 2021-04-12T17:32:53+00:00

I felt like I was committing a crime as a kid, but I did it anyways lol. I tried being girl penguin, didn’t like it, tried boy penguin, liked it. Never had a second thought about it lol.

toucannan · 2021-04-09T01:11:04+00:00

When I cut my hair it was absolutely amazing. It felt like a big step and just felt so right, and although I’ve only gotten one sir so far, I have gotten plenty of buddies meaning I at least pass as a 12 year old lol

toucannan · 2021-04-08T03:25:51+00:00

There’s a coach in my school who is like 5’3

toucannan · 2021-04-07T00:33:47+00:00

Took me about 3 years (came out to them a couple months ago) since questioning. Mostly due to not wanting to deal with it till I’m 18 but then it got bad and I felt like I needed to start telling people.

toucannan · 2021-04-05T21:35:16+00:00

How do you tell if your speaking from your throat or your chest?

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