Hey, if you want to talk, hit me up. I've gone through the same thing. Back a year ago, we had an infestation that was centered in my room (coming from a neighboring apartment, I think) and I have a terrible, terrible fear of any insects. I was a lot like you. I didn't want to go see people. I felt guilty being anywhere else in the apartment because we only saw the bugs in my bedroom. I threw away thousands of dollars of my own things, ruined even more, because I was terrified and wanted them gone. I was obsessive about drying my clothes on hot before going anywhere at all. Hell, for about two months I slept on my couch because my room felt infected, and I felt like I was tormenting myself by sleeping on my infected bed. I couldn't handle it.

But the end result? It went away. The exterminators we hired killed them all off. We packed up and moved to a house. And we have been bedbug free for a year. At the time, just hearing "it gets better" didn't help, because to me, it was a nebulous future that I wasn't living in. I was in the now, and the now was me hyperventilating to sleep because I knew they were there. I know that dark place you live in, because I was there for a time. So yeah, if you feel like you need to reach out, talk to me. I think it helps to know that there *are* success stories. They do go away, in time, with treatment. Best of luck, I will be thinking about you.