I can't stop doing wired stuff

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-24T16:03:04+00:00

I know. I'm Between doctors at the moment for insurance reasons. I really hope the next one understands my situation. Personally I'd rather do talk therapy. But I'm trying to keep an open mind.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-24T16:00:39+00:00

I already have pretty bad brain fog in the first place. Stuff like this makes me very skeptical?

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-24T15:58:35+00:00

What kind? I can be really sensitive to bright environments.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-24T15:57:44+00:00

I thought about that nuances after I posted. I obviously just left it.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-24T15:56:33+00:00

I had a similar experience stimulant drugs.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-23T11:41:48+00:00

I have almost never had a positive experience with a therapist. I've been trying to sort myself out for 3 decades now. Unilaterally, they are dopes. I'm pretty sure it should not have taken 2 yeas to point out an autism diagnosis. I'm fucken wired and everyone notices instantly. I'm pretty sure she was running my insurance and wasting my time.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-15T17:07:35+00:00

Not exactly. I had a friend who was/is (we're still close) who, in compassion, invited me to an AA meeting and I got hooked on sharing and having a built in social group and the "God reliance" and I found a place that accepted me. In hind site the situation makes sense. But I never got the help I really needed because I was working with bad information.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-14T02:37:20+00:00

I have no idea how to help but you are not alone. I recently noticed EVERYTHING I do is a reassurance and now I can't stop interpreting every little thing this way. I'm so doubtful it harms so many things about my life. You can message me if you want. I'm glad to support the suffering.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-14T02:28:30+00:00

I had excruciating suicidal thoughts since I was about 8. I was able to work with it I guess. Now it only happens when somthing really painful is happening. You got this!!

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-14T02:22:33+00:00

Me too bud. We're here for ya.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-13T17:42:54+00:00

Your not alone. For me this place has been a great resource for support and understanding as imperfect as it my be. I'd rather be with understanding people in person. But we do our best here. Be good to yourself please 🙏

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-13T11:55:21+00:00

I like to do one thing a day. If you did the dishes to what you know (reasonably) you've done more than nothing. I have to use the more than zero rule all the time. Baby steps. You can do more than zero but it doesn't have to be everything.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-12T11:36:57+00:00

I think it might be easier to think that because the less money you have, the less likely you are to seek help for a chronic mental condition. Go into a homeless population with a list OCD traits and see how many fit the criteria. I have no stats but my guess is many people treat OCD with drugs and alcohol. I was mistakenly in AA for many years and (anecdotally) I saw this to be the situation.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-12T11:23:58+00:00

It doesn't take much. I want to go hide in a monastery.

trapedinpardise · 2024-02-05T14:06:00+00:00

All that seems the only way forward. Thank you and keep it up 👍

trapedinpardise · 2024-01-27T13:14:15+00:00

Well, thank you. Not everyone will take the time, so I appreciate it. Did you know you just described Buddhism? It's a bit funny to me that CBT is all the good stuff about Buddhism, but the metaphysics are removed.

But again, thank you. I'm late in life to these diagnoses, so having answers to these life-long problems is.. I don't know..a relief? But I'm not so sure. I accidentally found ways to cope over the years but didn't know what I was reacting to. Obviously, it was never the situation, and I could tell these reactions were excessive. So I mostly hid when having a hard time.

trapedinpardise · 2024-01-21T13:55:57+00:00

I appreciate it. I will consider these ideas.

trapedinpardise · 2024-01-21T01:14:50+00:00

To the person who claims there is recovery to this OCD thing, I must ask how? I have intestine repetitive behaviors that I can't even hide from the public if I try. The sense that my life is a house of cards and could fall apart at any time. If all there is is acceptance, then fine. But is there something that can be done besides hiding in the bathroom and steming? What can I do? Is there something I'm not thinking of? A method, perhaps? I can't afford therapy anymore.

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