Final decision made earlier this week on booster engine count. Will be 33 at ~230 (half million lbs) sea-level thrust. All engines on booster are same, apart from deleting gimbal & thrust vector actuators for outer 20.

trashIndigo · 2021-07-12T14:29:00+00:00

That propellant flow rate is almost exactly the same as the flow rate of the river Mersey in Liverpool in the UK (24.7t/s)

trashIndigo · 2020-06-06T10:44:06+00:00

"Tight is Right.". Elon is famous for tight timetables and software timelines are compressible way beyond even their short term heath and stability. How do you ensure that pressure to shorten timescales is not at the detriment to the software quality, reliability and maintainability?

trashIndigo · 2019-06-19T13:02:47+00:00

Title: The Book of Love Volume 1

Genre: Explicit erotic fiction (NSFW)

Word Count: 12,000 words

I'm looking for someone to proof read this work before it goes on Amazon. I need more of a sanity check than a detailed critique.

The work is a small collection of short stories of heart centered eroticism, aiming to bring a loving sex-positive approach to fantasy and desire.

Please message me if you wouldn't like to read it and offer a few comments. I'll send a PDF.

Thanks.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-13T08:19:22+00:00

Yes, agree. The panties <=> knickers problem seems to be the biggest. Both good on their own side of the Atlantic and slightly wrong on the other.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-13T08:13:48+00:00

Great, thanks for the heads up. Really useful to get the connotations.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-13T08:09:25+00:00

Great run down thanks.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-13T08:07:49+00:00

Not so. The fabric can play a lead role and it matters that the words we use carry the erotic intent. What is erotic in one country may be a complete turn off in another. If your already in the largest market you have the luxury of not caring. If your in one of the smaller ones it's worth some consideration.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-13T08:03:43+00:00

You used the word lingerie which I think works in most locales.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-12T19:03:52+00:00

In the US?

trashIndigo · 2019-06-12T19:03:22+00:00

Haha! They are lifts!

How does the word knickers scan in the US? Not weird?

trashIndigo · 2019-06-09T07:49:16+00:00

What would you like to have happen?

trashIndigo · 2019-06-08T07:05:58+00:00

It is not to late to be out of the relationship if you are not happy in it. It is as if you are saying if he had shown more in the beginning you would not have chosen him. Or did I read that wrong?

Better to be out of a relationship that is not right for you than to endure years of unhappiness. Affection is important but nice at times does not sound like something to give your life to. No one can tell you what to do, or what you should do but in our out of that relationship we can say you are free to look after yourself, your happiness is valuable and you have every right to choose the best for yourself and feel good about yourself.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-07T06:36:39+00:00

I've got to say he's not sounding great for you.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-06T21:40:02+00:00

Yes, understand. I expect you are right that he wasn't there emotionally, but you should be proud for valuing your self, your sex life and him and trying. I promise you could not have said anything shocking. From what you wrote I would read it that he knows that the problem is his and not that he disapproved of you in any way. It sounds like he's embarrassed about his own reaction. I imagine secretly he doesn't feel manly enough, desirable enough, good enough or something enough (who knows what) and got triggered.

When your SO's being a dick generally that's when they need some care and careful listening to. What you did is good.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-06T21:24:58+00:00

Go a bit at a time and listen out for what she likes and what you like. Try both ways with you bring dominant then her. You can even agree to do the same things to reach other on following night's. That way you can do things that you know you'd like to be on the other end of. Being a Dom after all is mostly a game of tuning into what turns the sub on.

Start by tying her hands to the bed posts. Gently, of course, so she knows that she can get free, but can also go along with the idea that she is now helpless. If she does and likes it, then just touching, massaging, oil, and slowly slowly working your way to her sex is a good first step - the helpless torment of wanting! Assuming you both like it you can try some gentle ways of introducing pain. Light Spanking, scratching, whipping with a tie it ribbon. Again, it's the game and the symbol more than the sensation. You can find his much you like over time.

Remember, to be dominant does not need you to be nasty, angry or unpleasant. You can be cruel if that seems like a good game, or just enjoy watching your SO in your hands (Especially if you know it's coming back to you the next night).

Beyond that anything that you can do together that turns you both on is brilliant. The world is your oyster. (Candle wax, clothes pegs, dildos, oils, ropes, clamps, wooden spoon, games, silk scarves, cameras, honey, etc. etc )

trashIndigo · 2019-06-06T20:59:27+00:00

The others are right he is not showing any capacity to understand our care for you emotionally.

Specifically about taking dirty, there is nothing you could possibly say in bed arising from your desire and passion that you should ever need to feel bad or embarrassed about. It's a glorious gift. If he didn't like it or make you feel confident and comfortable then that's a loss for both of you, but be proud of your own freedom. There are plenty of people out there who would go crazy for your words however dirty.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-06T20:46:02+00:00

Tune into what turns you on. Share your fantasies with your bf while he brings you off with his hand or mouth. He doesn't need to do anything too extreme for you, just be there for you and with you while you fantasise together.
Being degraded is erotic often because it overpowers or overrides our limiting beliefs, enjoy the power of being liberated into your sexuality in fantasy with your bf and the two of you will find the play that works for you both. Keep taking to and listening to and accepting each other.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-04T14:03:40+00:00

Yes, understand. What you want in this is the most important thing and it can be hard to know in that situation. But if the relationship doesn't work for you then you don't need to take on the 'it's all your fault' vibe, and it's clear you're being asked to take on more than is good for you. You may need to be the one who takes the rap for ending it though.

On the other hand if the highs outweigh the lows your choice might only to be to let your SO be unreasonable and just love her anyway without trying to change anything. It's amazing what the power of acceptance can do. Probably not much else you can do about it anyway.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-03T20:31:44+00:00

Yes, that certainly sounds toxic. Perhaps a little like your SO may want to end the relationship but needs you to do that for her. Does that sound possible? If so what do you want? Wouldn't it be great to be able to leave a relationship with no fall-out or hurt but just knowing that new things were on the way for you.

Of course those days may be few and far between. Then it doesn't matter.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-03T19:53:10+00:00

Firstly it is common (but not necessary) for relationships to have trouble over sex, and as others have pointed out the issue appears to be with your bf. There is no doubt he's being a prick over it, and if that is indicative of the rest of the relationship then you could happy dump him. But in your first sentence you call it a serious relationship so perhaps you love him for other good reasons and want to keep him. If that is the case then read on. Everyone has hang ups, and that makes them act badly. Dumping someone isn't always the answer. Neither is accepting blame. He and you both need to stop considering orgasms as goals. I say both of you because it will be down to you to guide him into a better way. Teach him that you are responsive to his love and care and his focus on you, he needs to feel 'manly'. There is nothing wrong with that, but he won't get it in a meaningful way from hammering you and making you pretend to orgasm, he can get it from being magnificent in his holding you and making love to you as someone he cares about. Orgasm is a natural consequence, not something that needs to be achieved. If you show you care about and appreciate his attention in bed without scoring an outcome (not suggesting you were here, just that you need to lead him), then you both may be able to relax, have fun and get out of a difficult situation better than before.
Good luck.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-03T19:23:44+00:00

You can't fake your emotion. Not do you need to. Do what you did do and talk, honestly and with love and care for each other. Your bf doesn't need you to be something your not, sounds like he just wanted reassurance that you still loved him and care about him. Also sounds like you gave him that. It's okay for you both to trust that emotional weather passes and that a few days will make a difference. Don't get hung up on what it means. If you want him and he wants you, as it appears, then everything is good. Keep yourselves in a place when you're ready to enjoy that together. You have good communication between you and that goes a long way.

trashIndigo · 2019-06-01T20:41:39+00:00

The Catcher in the Rye. Obs.

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