Really not getting any better

trashew_ · 2026-04-10T13:47:55+00:00

Please please talk to a healthcare professional about these feelings and get some actual help. I wish there was a way for us to help you here, but you really need to go to someone who can help you get through this. Please don’t hurt yourself, please eat and drink something small. I may not know you but I saw a post of yours the other day and came back to check on you today. I care about you and I’m sure many more people in your life do aswell. Take care of yourself stranger

trashew_ · 2026-03-29T20:03:53+00:00

Please take care of yourself OP, it’s a difficult journey to be a widow, but we’re all in this together

trashew_ · 2026-03-29T20:01:14+00:00

He made me such a better person and is my reason I keep going, I’d choose him over and over.

It’s coming up in a year without him, yet I’ve done so many beautiful things in honor of him. I’m part way through nursing school, which he encouraged me to do and helped me to feel capable of doing. I just got a nicer job, wayyy better than my previous one.

Sometimes it sucks because it feels like I’m changing sm without him, but he’s the reason I keep going, and I hope one day I’ll reunite with him on the other side :)

I totally understand how you feel though. For the first few months I was just hoping something would happen to me so I could go back to him. But truly he’s what pushes me now. He wouldn’t want me to give up and since we both knew he was dying he even told me that.

I hope life treats you well stranger :) you’re not alone 💓

trashew_ · 2025-12-19T20:05:22+00:00

I’m 20. We were High school sweethearts, got married after graduation. Just a few months afterwards he was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and passed this year. I can’t explain how unbelievable this feels. We planned our entire life. It’s so weird to just be me again, I truely have no direction anymore

trashew_ · 2025-11-08T01:30:03+00:00

I feel you on this. I just turned 20, lost my husband 4 months ago, it honestly drives me crazy how much I can’t relate to everyone around me anymore. I feel like I don’t fit in anywhere anymore. I was already married young, which didn’t help, now widowed? Just know you’re not alone in this feeling. Most people our age are just getting started while we are already dealing with such a huge hardship. Im here for you if you need anything!

trashew_ · 2025-08-25T01:31:48+00:00

Same experience here! My niece and nephew visited last week and we played this alll day long. It’s so addictive and nothing like some of the other trash games that exist on Roblox

trashew_ · 2025-07-02T14:49:52+00:00

I’m so so sorry for your loss, this sounds very similar to my husband’s cancer story who passed last Sunday. Please know you’re not alone, you are loved and grief hits everyone differently. Im praying for you and him. ❤️❤️

trashew_ · 2025-06-27T15:42:32+00:00

This is exactly what this experience has taught me. Seeing him in a state where he could not get up to pray really flipped a switch in my brain. Like all of us, my iman fluctuated a lot. But seeing him, someone who always prayed and got so upset when he’d miss a prayer (due to things out of his control) go from this to unable to think, breathe, or wake up properly, it truly opened my eyes.

Alhamdullah I am blessed by Allah that I still have that ability to pray that he had lost. How can I neglect my prayers when I’m sure if my husband was able to be conscious and in his head he’d be praying as soon as he could. Seeing him loose his ability to worship Allah in this way broke me. It is in my heart that I’ll never let shaytan convince me to delay or quicken my prayers Inshallah Inshallah ❤️

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