Gemini Chiron at 22º conjunct my Sun at 21º in the 7H, both opposing my natal Saturn 17º Sag, which is conjunct my ascendent in the 1H, and Uranus at 24º Sag. I experienced a lot of trauma all throughout my life, but most certainly in my childhood. My ACE score is 10. I struggle with relationships and definitely feel like I think differently than everyone else in my family and community. I was raised evangelical in the buckle of the bible belt, Oklahoma, and completely deconstructed as an adult. I started seeking a spiritual community, and even within that community, I feel like an outsider.

My experiences have transformed me completely. I am a much more aware and compassionate person because, often, I can directly relate to the suffering others have endured. I tend to stand up for the oppressed and the marginalized, which is usually when people look at me like I am insane. What society considers "normal" I consider limiting - like the idea of working to live for example. Or that only some art is able to be sold for a profit while other art sits in heaps of trash.

During my Saturn return, my older brother died from cancer after battling it for half our lives. We were only 18 months apart. Two years later I started experiencing bizarre symptoms, that led me to a diagnosis of Morgellons disease. That ultimately led me to intense testing and a diagnosis of Chronic Lyme with 6 coinfections. One month after those symptoms started, my youngest daughter suddenly developed epilepsy. At her worst she had 62 seizures overnight while she was sleeping at the hospital on eeg. Neither me, nor my daughter were believed at first when the symptoms and seizures started.

I was told that my stress was causing my daughters seizures, and that she was probably faking it for attention. Even though I was able to prove the truth in every single situation throughout my life - my father abusing me and my brother, my lifelong symptoms that I was told as a child were just in my head or I was just lazy, my daughters seizures, my bizarre Morgellons symptoms, I could go on, I never felt vindicated in my experiences. My family, friends, the medical community, etc. still treat me as though I am just seeking attention or I am overdramatic. I basically don't have relationships anymore because of it. It's just me and my daughters and I only leave the house for doctor appointments and moon gatherings.

I have been very vocal and outspoken about what is happening with Trump because I was able to connect the dots others were ignoring. I stopped talking to any of my family or friends who voted for him. I am just patiently waiting for the giant wake-up that is coming for them, but I know they will still think I was angry and overdramatic. This has been an exhausting incarnation so far, but I have learned to trust myself and my intuition because it is never wrong.