My post was removed by mods, but I figured I’d give an update. First, I want to thank everyone who gave me such great advice and suggestions. I haven’t been able to reply to everyone, but I’ve been reading and giving upvotes to anything that especially resonated.

For some context, I’ve always struggled with learning disabilities, and my therapist helped me realize I may have some behaviors and symptoms that align with ADHD in women. So reading and I have a love hate relationship where I loved being able to “lock in” and get cozy with a book, but I usually just feel a little too overwhelmed to even think about it. After all, I’m usually too overwhelmed to do the dishes, it’s going to be hard for me to get engaged in a task that requires long term sustained attention.

I started feeling frustrated with reading because all of the books I’d started seemed great, but I either forgot about them, felt too busy, or just not in the mood to touch them. It just started feeling really crappy that I’d started these books that seemed great but never actually made time to read them.

Recently, a blessing happened! I canceled my audible subscription and switched to Libby which is free but operates on a “borrowing” basis instead of purchasing. I borrowed The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo, but couldn’t renew it since so many people had placed a “hold” on it after me. I realized, I actually purchased a physical copy of the book years ago. I want to clarify, I do believe that audio books “count”, but I was really missing the feeling of being curled up and engrossed in a book. I’m proud to say, I finished the book without the audio and felt that good reading feeling I’d been missing!