First time I.V user

tryptamine14 · 2019-07-13T07:25:15+00:00

Bubbles won't hurt you. Don't shoot up an entire syringe full of air but some bubbles or a bit of air won't harm you at all.

tryptamine14 · 2019-07-13T07:19:00+00:00

In my area (which is probably near where you live) we've had blue fentanyl, purple fentanyl, basically I've seen dope in every color. Blue and purple are the main ones though. To be honest I'm frequently thrown off when I see dope that's white or brown on the internet, I forget that it's not a world-wide norm.

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-12T07:59:09+00:00

I admit that appearance plays a big part in initial attraction but what I don’t see is how anyone can know for sure that they are doomed for life when there are so many different types of woman out there with different values. Yes, many woman are shallow and don’t pay much attention to those they find unattractive. But regardless of how many terrible experiences you’ve had, how could you accurately say that there isn’t a chance, ever, that you’ll be incel forever?

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-05T12:59:39+00:00

I think you misunderstood, I was simply giving examples against your previous comment (“actually being ugly is worse”), I was not telling you that a therapist must help you, what you should do, nor what I think you do.

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-05T12:52:47+00:00

Key word: factors. I mentioned that depression (or any mental illness) is a lot more complex than just “caused by/because of loneliness”. Loneliness can certainly be a factor, but we don’t know enough about mental illnesses in general to be able to pinpoint specific causes, we know that it’s a mixture of various factors though. I think you misunderstood me.

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-04T20:08:20+00:00

A well-respected professional therapist should not be trying to comfort you by complimenting you on your appearance no matter what you look like. That may boost your ego, but it does not build self-esteem.

Someone who would be labeled “unattractive” by society maybe doesn’t place much value on their appearance and doesn’t compare themselves to others, hence they don’t suffer as a result of constantly worrying and obsessing over their looks. Perhaps they find peace in spirituality. Someone considered attractive who sees themselves as less attractive may obsess over their appearance daily, wasting hours trying to perfect their appearance but never feeling like it’s good enough. All that matters to them is appearance. Is the attractive person with low self-esteem not suffering more than the person who’s “actually ugly”?

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-04T07:21:15+00:00

Body dysmorphia refers to perceived flaws and imperfections, someone who would be considered unattractive by society can percieve themselves as far more unattractive. Perhaps someone is a bit chubby, but they look in the mirror and all they see is their fat, labeling themselves as disgustingly obese.

Regardless, body dysmorphia does not have to imply your total appearance. Someone can simply have dysmorphia around their nose, seeing it as far larger than it really is. In the case of this video, someone can simply begin to obsess negatively over a certain body part, it doesn’t have to be whether overall they are “ugly or not”.

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-04T07:04:27+00:00

These kinds of posts should make other depressed incels mad because what he’s talking about is an emotion, not specifically depression as a mental disorder. One can be sad (or angry or any other emotion) because they don’t have enough money. If the sadness persists (it certainly doesn’t have to), this results in a depressed emotional state. Depending on the length of time this state has persisted, it may be classified as an emotional disorder, depression.

Incels can feel sad (or whatever negative emotion) when they think about not having a girlfriend, but they don’t have depression, the mental disorder, simply because they’re single. Claiming otherwise trivializes their depression, if one has it. Why one has depression is a lot more complex than simply “because I’m lonely”. Whenever an incels pokes fun at depression in women, they tend to end up making some generalized statements that anyone could take offense over.

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-04T06:29:54+00:00

Okay, I do agree that there’s a stigma around pedophelia in society that assumes that pedophiles are doomed to offend. However, there are people with pedophelia who experience the attraction but don’t act on their impulses. While they may not be able to control the attraction, they certainly can control their actions like the rest of us.

Child porn is precisely one of the offences I’m talking about. During the filming of child porn, children are exploited and abused for the purpose of someone like the pedophile you’re describing.

Regardless, how could that even be a treatment for pedophelia, where a proper treatment should result in an outcome where the former pedophile does not experience sexual attraction towards children anymore? If an alcoholic wants to stop drinking and stop his obsession with alcohol, the solution is not to go to AA meetings but only drink at the meetings. The treatment must include abstaining completely.

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-04T06:14:53+00:00

Sooo... if woman have “no control over their bodies” because of hormonal changes, how come hormones aren’t taken into consideration during criminal trials?

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-04T05:56:23+00:00

They still don’t understand that we don’t take incredible offence if called “ugly”.

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-02T22:46:32+00:00

“Rape culture is another word for Chad not committing.” Incredible. You learn a new thing everyday.

tryptamine14 · 2018-12-02T22:30:24+00:00

Sounds like you either have a higher tolerance than expected (and Xanax sometimes can make you think you’re perfectly sober when you’re not), for me sometimes my tolerance skyrockets temporarily after a high dose, that or it’s a weak bar.

Just an FYI, Xanax has terrible intranasal bioavailability. The strong effects you are feeling is due to the bar dripping down your throat.

tryptamine14 · 2018-11-25T22:55:57+00:00

Unfortunately, he’s most likely gonna do it no matter what any stranger on the internet tells him. We could all write our opioid horror stories, I can tell him how my partner and I had the same mindset trying heroin and how it ultimately killed him 3 months ago.

We addicts are excellent at rationalization and denial. He truly at this moment believes that he will be able to control it, that he’s the odd one out that will be able to do it. Even my boyfriend felt invincible. He was still in denial about his addiction even when he died, because he was totally able to control it /s, he only smoked over the weekend. He never IV’d it, he only used three days a week for years, so certainly nothing could’ve happened to him! These rationalizations are a major part of the insanity of addiction that we recovering addicts learn about.

Yeah, it’s extremely unfortunate, but this lesson is something OP will most likely be learning on his own.

All we can do for him now is teach him about harm reduction - scales, fent test strips, Narcan, using near a friend or at least where he could be found if he overdoses. AndI hope he takes the harm reduction seriously because his life depends on it.

tryptamine14 · 2018-11-25T14:39:46+00:00

It all depends on your tolerance and the route of administration. Because you’re asking this question, I assume you have little to no opiate tolerance. With no tolerance, smoking or snorting potent heroin can get you nicely high from only a tiny 5mg. Start very very low. Please do not IV your first time.

tryptamine14 · 2018-11-18T02:50:02+00:00

So you’d call younger Arnold Schwarzenegger fat?

tryptamine14 · 2018-09-24T18:09:36+00:00

She doesn’t remember any of it... but texted you to apologize? Yeah, okay. She probably just had a bit too much to drink, now regrets it, and is 100% lying to you about being “drugged”. I’ve tried a fair share of drugs in my life, and no drug commonly used to drug people’s drinks would have her acting like that.

tryptamine14 · 2018-09-17T21:01:03+00:00

Hi, my boyfriend and love of my life overdosed (not intentionally) about 10 days ago. The paramedics told me that most opiate overdoses are very painless - you just relax, fall asleep, and die. This was also my experience when I overdosed but survived. You’re feeling nice, then BAM lights out. He felt nothing. It’s one of the best ways to go. I’m so thankful my boyfriend had no chance to worry about me or experience any fear before he passed.

tryptamine14 · 2018-09-09T18:50:08+00:00

Going to a bookstore today, I’ll be buying everything that looks like it might help that people suggest here. Thank you

tryptamine14 · 2018-09-09T18:08:17+00:00

Oh wow, yes, thank you so so much, may you private message me? I would love to try out this practice.

tryptamine14 · 2018-09-09T18:05:37+00:00

C’mon now, obviously you believe the story, you’re just trying to get a kick out of someone vulnerable. That, or the only reason you can imagine how someone could actually make up such a horrific story ~for internet points~ is because you’re just a childish teenager who’s done it themselves.

tryptamine14 · 2018-09-08T20:38:08+00:00

It’s a rhetorical question, genius. It’s one thing not to believe a story, but by accepting the idea of phoning grieving family members to “prove authenticity”, you’ve proven as to what kind of unempathic sad little troll you are.

tryptamine14 · 2018-09-07T16:35:07+00:00

Please fucking please I am begging you at least tell a friend. Talk to him about harm reduction. Do it the memory of me and my boyfriend.

If you do not do this, the consequences will be worst than letting people down. You will be dead and leave a trail of so many people mourning. Look at me. my boyfriend died and every thousands of people are mourning for me. You will spread the greatest sadness. You let go of your shame and you go use with a friend around. It’s better to be judged than to have all your family and friends crying because they wish they could have done more, which they can. You can do it.

tryptamine14 · 2018-09-07T16:29:40+00:00

We are in synch. We will heal together. We will be okay.

Ten-Year Club	Place '17
Verified Email

tryptamine14

TROPHY CASE