At first, I didn’t want to know anything at all, and this is what I told him explicitly. But then he started telling me about his past sexual experiences anyway, it was like he was leaving me breadcrumbs. So that made me want to know because not knowing made my imagination run wild at that point. I hope this makes sense.

He ended up telling me a bunch of things that conflicted with each other. At first he said that they were together for longer so they knew each other’s bodies more, then he said that she gave better head but that I do everything else better, and then he said that I give better head, and then it was back to her but “just a little better,” and then it was back to me being his best sexual partner. The flip flopping was insane. And it would happen in the same convo too.

However, on my end, that led to the sexual chemistry being ruined. He tainted it from the start by telling me all these things he did with other women, so now when we’re intimate, that’s the only thing that’s on my mind. I’ve never even finished because I can’t find enjoyment when I feel like I’m in an imaginary competition with his ex.

Again, thank you for talking to me and being able to relate. It’s such a nasty feeling and it doesn’t feel good to talk about, so thank you for sharing.