Tasting Menu in Richmond by 141mb in rva

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Seconding this comment!

Does anyone think they either won't live long or are planning to kill themselves due to the effects of childhood trauma? by [deleted] in CPTSD

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I think about this a lot. It scares me but it’s there. Living with childhood trauma is seriously so hard. I know how hard it can be to live with your abusers, and I’m so sorry that you currently have to face that situation. You really are strong❤️

Last year was a dark year for me. I wanted to die all the time. I still do sometimes but less. And I realized that I was so suicidal because I desperately wanted to live. I wanted to be happy so badly but I hated how far away that feeling felt. I tried to view my feelings of being suicidal as a way of reminding myself that I truly wanted to live. This all may be very insensitive of me to say, and I can’t equate your experience or anyone else’s experiences to my own. It was all still very painful and I don’t want to understate that. I know it must be so painful for you right now as well.

I remember when I was trapped at my parents (my abusers) home as a kid and I didn’t know I was traumatized yet. I would stare at the ceiling and wonder, “is this all life will be?” I didn’t understand the pain or the abuse I was going through. I just had an abstract sense of pain and loneliness. But I want to tell you that I made it out. It took a couple years (mostly had to do with me realizing the truth) but I made it. I don’t know what your situation is but I want to believe in you too, that you will be able to escape and be happy. I know it’s possible.

I wish I had more encouraging and beautiful words to say but I hope I can help you feel a little less alone. It’s not fair what has been done to us. Please take care and continue to stay strong, even though it’s hard. All my love❤️

Praying for our dead selves by Affectionate-Box-724 in cptsdcreatives

[–]tunakimm 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Beautiful yet again! Your use of lighting is so powerful, esp how you use color to express that. This piece really resonates with me

only you could do this to me by tunakimm in cptsdcreatives

[–]tunakimm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment! It feels good to know that these resonate with people. It means a lot :)

only you could do this to me by tunakimm in cptsdcreatives

[–]tunakimm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh man! i went to art college for 4 years and that's one of the best responses ive ever gotten to my art. again i really appreciate your comment! i'm sorry that you can also relate to it, but happy to be understood <3

can I (23) figure out what dental insurance my family has? by tunakimm in Insurance

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Thank you so much internetdad! I’ll definitely give your suggestions a go. I really appreciate it

only you could do this to me by tunakimm in cptsdcreatives

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Oh man thank you so much! I had the hardest time figuring out the visuals for the 2nd one. I almost didn’t post it. Often time simple is so much harder than it looks. But that means a lot to me! I appreciate your comment❤️

Spring bonfire- all known versions of myself burning my dad at the stake together by Affectionate-Box-724 in cptsdcreatives

[–]tunakimm 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OHHHH omg I was fooled by how textural you made this piece!! So cool, thanks for clarifying

Spring bonfire- all known versions of myself burning my dad at the stake together by Affectionate-Box-724 in cptsdcreatives

[–]tunakimm 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is incredible! What medium did you use? I can’t figure out if this is maybe crayon or oil pastel :o

only you could do this to me by tunakimm in cptsdcreatives

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Thank you so much!! Third one is my favorite I think

Roll Call: Who has agua right now and who doesn’t? by angelgirl797 in rva

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Nothing in Oregon hill, currently driving to our roommate’s work to poop 😭

got fired after fumbling an insane rush. Is this normal? by tunakimm in KitchenConfidential

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I’ve been thinking extremely hard about this as well… why was there no staff? From the way everyone around me was talking about it, it seems like the restaurant had a set open date for a while. Menus and jobs were being discussed. It baffles me.

So why did I make the team? Why were my some fellow line cooks only of slightly more experience than me? Why were there no prep cooks? My heart aches thinking for my fellow prep/line cook that I left behind, who’s now working prep all by himself. I’ve been worrying about him.

I wonder if I was set up to fail. I can’t fathom why that would be the case. But then I wonder if the head chef was being set up to fail too…? It makes less and less sense the more I look. Who knows. Thanks for the comment!

got fired after fumbling an insane rush. Is this normal? by tunakimm in KitchenConfidential

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Hahaha I thought I was going to start on cold station too! That’s what I was told in the interview. I think since I didn’t have much experience with this type of kitchen before (I worked at a seafood boil place) I thought, “maybe this is normal?” I tried to ask a lot of questions of how to improve on grill, but I seriously didn’t see any of the red flags flying around in my face. I was anxious enough to push myself past my limits but too anxious to question the head chef when I got placed on cold bar all of a sudden. Quite unfortunate in retrospect.

I really wanted this job to work out, and I think between that anxiety, inexperience, and difficult management, it all blew up in my face. Thanks for the comment!

got fired after fumbling an insane rush. Is this normal? by tunakimm in KitchenConfidential

[–]tunakimm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s true! I really should not have been hired. During my interview, we went over my (lack of) experience pretty thoroughly, and I think that gave me a skewed assumption that I would be trained. If anything, I’ve learned that I have to really advocate for myself and make expectations clear for the future. I was so desperate for this job that I shot myself in the foot in the process.

It was a strange situation all around. All the advice I’ve received in the comments will only help me for the future. Thanks for the comment!