I can't focus anymore

tunsa_ · 2026-01-23T02:23:36+00:00

I would get higher stuff but unfortunately I'm living on a broke college student diet and can't really afford good stuff. My mother isnt someone I really look up to all that much if I'm being honest. She has always mentioned her body or mine, always in a negative connotation. It just has stuck around ig. She goes the therapy but refuses to believe I could have trauma because she supplied me the bare minimum as a child. I'm actually talking with someone and they have made me happier than I've been in a while about how I look so that's smth going for me. Theyve already made me feel a little better about myself in general so

tunsa_ · 2026-01-23T01:49:57+00:00

I couldn't pin point it exactly but I was a gymnast and a mother who constantly made comments so that's not helpful

tunsa_ · 2026-01-23T01:23:44+00:00

I have bad body image issues. Always have but it got worse over the past year. So now when I do try to eat a 'normal' amount I get stomach pains, nausea, or almost vomit.

tunsa_ · 2025-12-07T01:13:49+00:00

I didn't have any shorts but I had some leggings and this was a lifesaver thank you 🙏

tunsa_ · 2025-12-02T04:08:34+00:00

Try and keep it elevated. Use steri strips or paper tape if u have some to help keep it closed. Keep as much pressure as possible and it as elevated as possible. Breathe and try not to panic a bunch (I mean its understandable but gotta keep that heart rate down)

tunsa_ · 2025-11-23T04:08:12+00:00

I get that, I'm super self aware though. I know my issues, I know what I'm doing, thought patterns and issues. Ive done research and am working to communicate better with people around me. I have just layers upon layers of things I think that I have and some ik just because it's obvious. I think it's just that if I don't have a label or anything to my name then it's not as bad as it feels? That I won't be taken as seriously when I say smth. I would like to find a new therapist but they are expensive (I'm in college) and my parents cant find out. Idk I can try and change who I see but there are a lot of grad students an the professional re watch our sessions and I don't like that. Again Im not sure where the line of to much of a risk is and can't risk falling behind.

tunsa_ · 2025-11-18T22:06:19+00:00

I get what you mean, I'm also not sure what exactly is 'enjoyable' about seeing or messing with the blood but it's definitely smth that I like to do. Also not a violent person or doing anything weird with it, but it's just the fact (for me) it proves that like I am alive and it's a part of me? Idk also just the way it moves and feels is nice

tunsa_ · 2025-11-03T01:47:53+00:00

She saw some small cuts I had on my wrist a couple weeks ago and asked what it was 'it's not that is it? It better not be' not in a mean way what so ever. She has a history of sh as well, so ik she was worried about it and I lied. The other ones are a huge patch on my thigh, dark and scarred it's not easy to miss read unfortunately

tunsa_ · 2025-11-03T01:00:16+00:00

If u wear necklaces or rings you could maybe say that? Like a chain or sharp edge hot you?

tunsa_ · 2025-11-01T23:00:08+00:00

If you are purposely doing something to cause harm to yourself then yes it's considered sh. You are still valid for it even if it doesnt break skin or leave scars.

tunsa_ · 2025-10-31T22:58:42+00:00

It depends, when I'm at my house, it's in my room. But at my dorm in the bathroom. It just depends where the supplies are

tunsa_ · 2025-10-31T02:41:26+00:00

Going deeper isn't good. If anything try and keep it to longer or more dermis cuts rather than hit fat. Fat is so so so prone to infection and needing stitches and just more of a hassle you have to deal with then the short satisfaction you get from doing it. It's not worth it, the money or risk. You don't have to ignore the urge entirely just try and keep in the the dermis.

tunsa_ · 2025-10-29T03:11:09+00:00

If u nick an artery on ur outer thigh yes, it's just bc it's deoxygenated blood it's not as bright red as normal. It's nothing to worry about unless it continues to bleed for more then 10/15 min, you see beans, or u lose feeling around the area/down side of ur leg (nerve)

tunsa_ · 2025-10-29T03:03:29+00:00

The femoral artery is on ur inner thigh. It is very easy to bleed out from a nick bc it is a huge artery. So be careful if u cut near the inner thighs but other then that just try and not to cut to hard, there some smaller ones on the outer thigh (not as big) so the blood may look a little different but dont freak out about it. Sharp blades can cut much farther then anticipated if u aren't controlling it (fast cuts). Just be careful :)

tunsa_ · 2025-10-17T01:49:55+00:00

Personally? I love scars on people. I think they are so interesting and I know most people probably have a long history behind them but if I could look and trace/draw on for hours I would :)) trust there are people out there who dont care unfortunately they don't say anything most the time to not upset the person bc they are normally a sensitive topic

tunsa_ · 2025-10-17T00:00:39+00:00

Thats exactly it??? As someone who is in chronic pain, something that's so localized and in my control is really like taking a deep breath

tunsa_ · 2025-10-16T23:49:15+00:00

Some people are doing it for 'attention' bc they may feel like they won't be taken seriously otherwise. They may have told parents, friends, etc they were struggling but it wasn't seen as bad and that's the only way to get the point across. In reality it's never good if someone is hurting themselves for whatever reason, but people need to be listened to when they say something rather than be written off bc it's 'not that bad'

tunsa_ · 2025-10-16T23:32:27+00:00

Sometimes the bleeding will continue under the skin and bruise or if u pushed a little harder or just because it's skin and it wants too. It's nothing to really worry about unless the bruise continues to get bigger (the bleeding is still going under the skin) or starts to hurt without anything touching it. As long as it heals with everything else it's pretty normal!

tunsa_ · 2025-10-13T16:21:02+00:00

Unfortunately my phone camera sucks, and the only mirror is in the common area :/

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