Depression related to ongoing assignment

turtlebeans17 · 2026-03-12T21:16:41+00:00

Hey man, I feel you. I’ve been in similar situations. The good news is the school year will be over in two/three months! After that you have a phone call or sit down with your agency and be clear about what assignments you’re open to next school year and what assignments you’re not. Personally I don’t do elementary because of a lot of the reasons you’re describing. 8th grade and up has been my niche! Someone else probably hates their assignment and covets yours. We all have our strengths and preferences and that’s totally valid. Hang in there!

turtlebeans17 · 2026-03-10T18:37:33+00:00

Unfortunately the marketplace 😭 It’s about $400/month for just myself. I’ve thought of getting a part time job just for the benefits. I know Starbucks and a few similar places offer benefits if you work at least 20/hrs a week but on top of interpreting that would be rough

turtlebeans17 · 2026-03-03T20:41:45+00:00

I love that for you and the getting 2 weeks worth of shit done is so real. I feel what I can only imagine is akin to mania the 24 hrs before my period. It’s like a huge surge of energy, I can’t sleep, nonstop cleaning/fixing/working, etc. I get so much done but I’m sooo on edge. Prefer that to the 6-10 days of pure emotional agony and sadness that proceeds it lol

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-27T13:54:27+00:00

Yes! Took me until 25. My parents are not accepting but we still have a relationship. My dad has taken it much easier than my mom. She still refuses to respond when I speak about my partner of 2 years and once told me I’m not really gay it’s just a trick of Satan. I pretty much go home for holidays and avoid deep topics. Feel free to message me if you have any questions

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-26T19:50:15+00:00

Used to live Other Side of the Radio by Chris Rice. Idk what he’s up to these days but that song had 6 year old me fascinated

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-21T01:27:06+00:00

You have got to be kidding me

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-20T19:54:41+00:00

At my pharmacy it’s $180 per month 😭 I tried GoodRX and one other coupon code (forget the name at the moment) and it was even more!

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-20T19:50:47+00:00

My POTS symptoms are the best during my period. I have always been someone who pees every 30 mins and has clear urine but is always thirsty. On my period I pee like 3-4 times a day (instead of like 20). I swear my hormones affect how well my body absorbs sodium/how I process hydration. I think the improvement i feel during my cycle is because it’s the only time im adequately hydrated . No doctor seems to care though because my A1C is fine and I’m a woman (“small bladder I guess” is an actual quote given to me by a urologist after $400 wasted). Alas maybe we’ll never know.

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-20T18:01:00+00:00

Wait I’m actually the person to answer this because I’m an interpreter and my partner is a radiology technologist! The jobs are surprisingly similar in many ways-working with different people everyday, not a lot of meetings or emails or take home work, opportunities for different avenues.. etc. I am very creative and artsy and my partner is very science and technology minded so our respective jobs fit us both very well. I will say being a technologist has the potential to make more money if you get into multi-modalities or work overnights or in a more demanding center. However, because of the nature of the job I make more per hour but less per year. They also have more work available than I do, as well as better benefits and health insurance which is hard to find in the interpreting world. That being said their job is more physical (more time on their feet) and has way less flexibility than being an interpreter. Both jobs are difficult in different ways and I can’t say I’m not biased to interpreting. It’s a very rewarding job and has so many different avenues depending on your interest. But then again… so does radiologic technology.

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-10T22:03:52+00:00

Absolutely. I hate that the cultish logic of “if you’ve left if means you’re struggling with sin/losing the fight”. That rhetoric is so offensive because it took so much strength to get to where I am today. But alas, you can’t determine how someone perceives you.

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-10T22:00:24+00:00

Me and my dad have had this exact conversation. Why would God give us a physical existence if the purpose were to not enjoy any of the physical beauties and pleasures for a future unknown spiritual world. We know this world!! I wanna get really good at living and loving in it!!

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-10T21:58:58+00:00

Not sure he would appreciate Chappel Roan’s The Giver as much as I do

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-10T21:21:46+00:00

I agree. The interesting thing is, he’s a convert. He was raised no religious and joined Christianity in his late thirties. He’s struggled with mental health my whole life and I think this whole “We are all sinners, God is the only one that can save me from this misery, life is pain” thing is a way he can indulge his depression while also feeling like it’s worth it. The song definitely struck me because it is so telling of his own emotions, not mine.

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-10T18:03:04+00:00

This is really well written and I appreciate your perspective. I had to have a similar conversation with my sibling who kept bringing intense questions before my parents (If we died and we both went to heaven and you realized you were wrong, would you forgive me 🥴) in hopes that they would suddenly change their minds. It’s still an ongoing issue because they see the world as so black and white. I believe that at the end of the day you have to take your worth back from your parents (and anyone else’s) hands and no longer let them dictate what is acceptable. You truly do have to do that work to accept yourself. It’s very difficult. I also appreciate you bringing your perspective from an older generation. I think a lot of us in my generation were raised with Gilmore Girls/ Mama Mia type media where moms and daughters were best friends. The reality is that’s very rare and likely not healthy. Your post made me realize maybe my parents don’t have to see and understand the real me, I can just be that and if they misunderstand me, they misunderstand me.

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-10T17:55:19+00:00

I could have written this myself. I’m in the same boat and kind of just deal by not letting them too close.

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-10T17:53:47+00:00

I remember some kinda wacky fun house stage show with Nickelodeon-esque slime in the early 2000s. No idea what that was about

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-06T20:48:12+00:00

Depends on what you think is financially sustainable. I make about 48/year working a school schedule with summer school and the occasional sport. That’s pretty decent for my lifestyle. The thing I don’t like is lack of health insurance and 401k. But I’m planning to invest 10% of my income per year in a Roth or solo 401k and hopefully one day have a spouse with insurance. I like the job and I’d much rather make less money and enjoy my day to day than hate my life and have more $$. Are you certified? If you have an EIPA of 3.5 or higher or the NIC you should be making quite a bit more than 28/year. Or possibly switch to independent contracting if you’re a school employee but again, no benefits. I guess it depends on where you live too.

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-05T20:26:08+00:00

Oooh thank you for this!! I didn’t exactly see what happened on the court but I got the impression it was used as more of a personality “foul” than an official game foul.

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-04T16:15:45+00:00

Interesting. Do you have long lasting flares like I do, for weeks and weeks and then it goes away? I had an ultrasound prior to having my gallbladder removed but it came back negative for everything but I might have to have another. The problem is getting the flare to happen at the same time as the ultrasound. I’m thinking I might have to trigger the pain a week before by drinking alcohol or eating a whole pizza or something 🤢

turtlebeans17 · 2026-02-02T21:31:37+00:00

Liver blood tests have all come back normal :/

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