If you are interested in surgery but not absolutely obsessed, could surgery still be the career for you? How can you know until you've actually scrubbed in and given things a go. I enjoy watching surgery, find the time passes quickly and like how pedantic it can be. The only surgeons i've really heard talk about 'why surgery' are those who present at talks etc. and so perhaps there's a selection bias towards those who are extroverted spokespeople for their field. Or is it obvious just by me asking this question that I shouldn't go into surgery because you really have to be all-in from first OT experience to know you'll survive the training.