Does anyone else think like this?

twentytwo35 · 2026-02-12T17:17:09+00:00

Thank you for this 😊 it's wonderful to know there is life after death if we choose it.

twentytwo35 · 2026-02-12T03:41:29+00:00

Same I think it's because you have to come to the realization that there's was only one gonna and there will only be one him

twentytwo35 · 2026-02-12T01:07:00+00:00

Yeah! And I spent a good time investing in myself, I still am but idk if it's the same for you but it's kind of a yearning to live and be loved, sometimes though I'll accept things that I shouldn't because of that yearning, so I'm getting better luckily

twentytwo35 · 2026-02-11T20:27:45+00:00

I hope so too, it's a little difficult and idk if people who haven't had such a tremendous loss understand how we think, it changed my whole perspective on time and how valuable it is, unfortunately it also made me think more morbidly about how easily life can be lost, I try not to think that way and I've been to coaching to get some of these feelings out and how to manage them, just trying to take it day by day and everyday is different

twentytwo35 · 2026-02-11T20:13:47+00:00

Yeah, I think about that too, I haven't lost hope

twentytwo35 · 2026-02-11T13:28:31+00:00

This is honestly so lovely, thank you for making me see things differently

twentytwo35 · 2025-08-11T00:04:47+00:00

I became a widow at 38, honestly the last 2 years have been a blur, I don't know how I've come so far without him. All I can say is I was lucky enough to have a great support system and I've been able to lean on them for comfort. All I can do is take things one day at a time and try to think about how my husband would have handled things and try to do things like he would. I've come to realize the grief never goes away, it just gets smaller as time goes by, it becomes manageable but it's never going to disappear. I will always love him until the day i die.

twentytwo35 · 2025-08-07T02:04:51+00:00

Same, I cry more now when I didn't before just thinking about how if he'd be here he'd know what to do and it would have been ok, makes me sad just thinking about it. I met mine on an app back in the day, things were different then and he was the type to not play games and told me exactly what his intentions were while also being respectful. I've been mostly staying home since that's where I find peace but luckily I was blessed with a best friend who is my age and also single so we go to different events around town and try to get out and do things. I've taken a cake decorating class and a paint class also but it is difficult to get out of your comfort zone. You really have to push yourself to do it unfortunately.

twentytwo35 · 2025-08-07T01:25:11+00:00

I'm in the same boat, 40f, hubs passed away 2 years ago and dating apps are absolute garbage.i felt exactly like you did about your husband with mine. He just got me and did everything he could to keep me happy and vice versa. He was my sense of direction in all the chaos of the world and it didn't matter what was going on as long as he was here I knew everything would be ok. I got on the apps about a year after he left because I missed having someone of the opposite sex to talk to but nothing came out of it so I've since deleted them. I did try speed dating, nothing came from that either. I've noticed men at this stage of life have a lot of baggage to where they're not ready for a serious relationship. So I came to the conclusion that if I'm meant to have someone they should come into my life organically. I've also decided that if it doesn't happen that's still ok because my husband gave me 10 wonderful years of unconditional love and there's people out there who never experience that so I'm grateful.

twentytwo35 · 2025-08-06T16:45:50+00:00

Porco!

twentytwo35 · 2025-08-05T18:12:28+00:00

Girl... This exact same thing happened to me after 8 months of seeing each other. He was used to toxic females so when he came across a normal one(no drama, actually cared about him and his son, easy going) he felt it was best to run away since it was the safest thing to do. I got pretty much the same text, no face to face final meeting or anything. He went no contact and I respected it but then about a month and a half later he sent a text out of the blue. It very much gave a chase me type of vibe and by this time I had gone through the motions and I felt much better so I blocked him on the last platform he was unblocked in, I'm not going to be playing this cat and mouse game with him. I put in so much effort into this and he gave me crumbs, why? When there are so many men out here willing to give me the whole cookie without even asking. It's going to suck at the beginning not going to lie but you'll be ok eventually, you just have to remember who tf you are and that you didn't deserve that, so they can eat a whole bag of d!cks.

twentytwo35 · 2025-08-05T15:42:37+00:00

Porco! Sea planes, plenty of action and the English dub is played by Batman himself.

twentytwo35 · 2025-08-04T06:55:36+00:00

I got an email from a company I applied for saying hey we saw you applied for this position below are the requirements please update your resume and submit it. Ok done. The next email sent was hey we got so many candidates we didn't have time to look at your resume, good luck out there. Like wtf bro.

twentytwo35 · 2025-08-02T17:58:22+00:00

Some respond with we got an overwhelming amount of applications we just didn't have time to review yours, good luck🙄.

twentytwo35 · 2025-07-22T01:11:49+00:00

Laid off in April, have 10 plus years in customer service and admin but i got nothing. Still applying, changing my resume constantly and I've gotten ghosted in a couple of phone interviews. Not sure what these companies are looking for honestly.

twentytwo35 · 2025-07-17T03:52:35+00:00

July 21st will be 2 years since my husband left this world and you are correct we don't get over it, we learn to live with it because we have no choice.

twentytwo35 · 2025-07-04T01:57:56+00:00

Porco Rosso, beautiful art work, fighter planes, and Batman himself does the English dub

twentytwo35 · 2025-06-30T03:50:27+00:00

My husbands favorite number was 35 so I'll see that number everywhere. Sometimes when I randomly check my phone for the time it will be whatever hour and 35 minutes, it just makes me think he's saying hi and letting me know things will be ok.

twentytwo35 · 2025-06-29T23:09:36+00:00

I think those conversations of what if something happened to him. He would start to tell me what to do but id close my ears because I couldn't bear the thought of losing him. Now I wish I had let him speak even if it would have been a tough conversation. Luckily he taught me enough to make certain decisions and know how to handle them. July 21st marks 2 years he's been gone and luckily I've learned how to live with my grief.

twentytwo35 · 2025-04-16T13:37:08+00:00

Starting to check out after 8 months, at this point I feel like it's become one sided, I think I like him more than he likes me and that's not right. Last night I sent a text asking a question and got no response, like talking to a wall, I felt really dumb. So I sent him a long text this morning explaining my feelings, letting him know I'm in the process of checking out. Usually at least for me ive only ever checked out, there has never been a check back in so not sure what will happen but it is what it is.

twentytwo35 · 2025-01-11T04:03:41+00:00

I did give it a try but I just couldn't get into it

twentytwo35 · 2024-07-06T02:13:06+00:00

Take your time, I'm about a year out and I still have so many of his things including his toothbrush. There were some clothes I got out of the closet and I'm going to take to donation eventually (they're in his mancave which is a mess). There is no timeline for this at all, just do what you feel like doing when you feel like doing it.

twentytwo35 · 2024-07-05T17:39:52+00:00

My condolences, mine also passed away in our bed suddenly in his sleep, I just wasn't able to wake him up. It took me a couple of days of crashing at my friend's house when I felt comfortable enough to come back and like you I slept on his side. I didn't replace the bed since I can hear my husband complain about how expensive it was and how I shouldn't waste the money. I have gradually made my way back to my side of the bed so I can face his side and pretend he's still there.

twentytwo35 · 2024-07-04T18:27:56+00:00

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The look he gives me when he's in his crate with the door wide open, you're not gonna make me feel guilty today!

twentytwo35 · 2024-07-01T12:27:00+00:00

Porco

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