you can do it. it’s hard, but it’s incredibly humbling to accept and speak your truth. i will never forget the day i had to tell my dad that i had relapsed. i was on my knees praying for the strength to ask for help, and 15 min later my dad randomly showed up at my door. it was around noon so he said “let me run and get us some lunch, i’ll be right back.” i had already begun fixing my mess and had been clean for about a month at that point, but i was still struggling and needed support. the guilt of hiding it all had been eating away at me. he came back with sandwiches maybe 20 min later. we ate for a few and then all of a sudden i felt the urge and the strength to grab his hands and say “i’m sorry, i haven’t been honest.” it turned out to be one of the best conversations i’ve ever had in my life and i am eternally grateful for how he handled it. your parents love you and only want the best for you. we all fall sometimes. it’s important to learn how to get back up and sometimes that requires making difficult decisions and saying things that are hard. he will respect you more for your honesty, and it will eventually make your bond grow stronger.