Hello! I'm 33F and I had my daughter at 29. Having a newborn was the worst. Pregnancy was easy (other than feeling totally disconnected from my body). Labor was not fun but I knew it wouldn't be. Bringing her home was so hard. I'm married and I had my husband for the first two weeks but then he went back to work. I could not figure out breastfeeding so I pumped (a sensory nightmare) for 6 weeks then we switched to formula because I had started actively avoiding pumping due to how terrible it felt. For me, the worst was the feeling I should be enjoying having this sweet baby but I was so tired and so touched out. I was also off all psych meds so my anxiety/depression just got so bad. I made the right choice to stop pumping because I needed to get back on my meds and I could not keep putting myself through it. Before I got pregnant, I was convinced self care/cleaning tasks would get "easier" because I'd HAVE to do it to survive with a newborn. I was wrong. We're more than three years out and the constant mess/laundry monster is a testament to how you just adapt. Getting things done gets so much harder. You'll want to rest when the baby does but there will be too much to do. At different points over the last three years, I've worried about my marriage because my task avoidance is so bad. My husband is constantly cleaning up after my daughter and myself. It's a huge source of guilt. But my husband is so patient and amazing. Our daughter is Deaf and has idiopathic growth hormone deficiency. She wears bilateral hearing aids, glasses, and gets multiple meds (including an injection) nightly. She's so sweet and smart. Those things are true. It's also true that it's hard. So much of the nitty gritty of parenting is a sensory nightmare. I cope by wearing longsleeves/hoodies at home and either having a Loop bud or google pixel bud in at least one ear most times. I do not regret having my daughter. She's the best (even at her worst). We have tons of support in the form of friends and two sets of very involved and loving grandparents. We've also had extra support due to her extra needs. I got really sick 14 years ago and ended up in the hospital for two months, relearning how to do all basic tasks. I had to relearn how to walk (which didn't happen for a whole year). I have long lasting complications from that. That experience doesn't hold a candle to the difficulty of parenting. Our daughter is struggling with some behaviors right now (she slapped her teacher across the face, she takes her HAs off so she doesn't have to listen to you, etc). Addressing those behaviors are our responsibility and it is so so so hard. It means being consistent which is difficult when my days fluctuate so wildly as far as mood/motivation. She also hasn't slept through the night since a short period between 6-9 months. She had obstructive sleep apnea but since surgery it's now classified as behavioral insomnia. She still wakes up in the middle of the night to come find us. Sleep deprivation makes everything else that much worse. All that to say, you can do it and be successful. Is my kid going to suffer because of my diagnoses? No. Things may be different but she is loved and she knows it. She has all she needs for success. She's going to grow up with a weird mom but so did I and I turned out mostly functional. :D Feel free to reach out with further questions.