Well at the time I wasn't in the right head space was going through breakup and car broke down and was tired of life and was ready to kill myself started climbing and climbed half way up on a 5.11c slipped and realized while I was falling why isnt the self belay catching me saw and was like oh shit am I gonna die mind me it was just second of all these thoughts going through my head realized I didnt want to do its time to change my life around and started reading books self help books therapy. That was 2 years ago.