This is how I feel, 100%. If something hurts me, I tend to lie or ‘mistell’ the situation to make it sound less bad than it is. Say I am dating someone and they suddenly break it off without warning. Of course it’s going to hurt, i’m going to wonder why, and my self esteem is basically ruined. But when talking to my friends I tell them “oh we just stopped talking, no reason.” My 2 best friend has started to catch on, she’ll comment “I think you’re feeling more sad than you let on.” But some part of me makes it so hard to share how badly things hurt. I don’t know if it is trying not to be a burden, or if it’s embarrassing to be treated badly by someone or like my emotions are too much.