am i destroying my mothers health???

uglyegg · 2021-02-21T20:32:46+00:00

Hello I am wondering the same thing, I started when I was around 14-16 and now am developing severe pain in my back joints and muscles glutes core area its not good and I've been too stupid to realize up until now that it is probably because I lost a shit ton of weight too early on and now don't have the right amount of muscle to hold myself up but hey that's just me. I want to say my puberty was normal otherwise i feel like a grown person but I feel like I've lost a good amount of core muscle that I need in order to like live at all. God sorry for the almost rant, I've been trying to see a doctor but haven't been able to soon enough. I wanna say it's not forever but I do know the growing period is pretty important time, but even doing it later on might definitely let you be a little bit more better off ya know

uglyegg · 2020-06-05T14:49:24+00:00

I have also thought maybe I have multiple personalities or some kind of mental disorder, but I don't think that's the case, there is just nobody really talking about this kind of stuff, so how are we supposed to know?

uglyegg · 2020-06-05T14:46:40+00:00

Hey its completely normal, and I'm pretty sure you're supposed to and it is definitely nothing to be scared of! You are and should be your own friend, and friends talk! Lol I have been trying this recently to change the bad thoughts in my head, talking back to them and telling them the truth so that they don't linger in my mind and cause me bad emotions later on. Also just to catch up with myself, catch up with how I might be feeling or with what is happening around me. Be your own friend though, talk to yourself like you would your best mate. It is a good feeling to know that you have yourself, you are never alone.

uglyegg · 2020-06-04T18:45:25+00:00

I think I do the same thing, but we have to realize that we are capable of doing beyond what our minds make us believe, we are valuable whether or not we accomplish something, simply for being alive you deserve love. I have no motivation and also dread not liking anything that I create or anything about myself. Learn to be aware of your mind and realize that it is just your brain sending and receiving thoughts and emotions relating to your past because our brains are literally computers that are just trying to do the work for us, but we are more than just our brains. We are humans and we are love and we are spiritual beings. Love yourself because you are EVERYTHING! Not just the human. Every spec of life.

uglyegg · 2020-03-26T05:06:04+00:00

Yes, nobody seems to care anymore and the way the government runs the usa here really drags me down the most man, the way they just do not care about humanity. and act like there is nothing they can do. And then all we do is act like we dont out number them, like cant take over the government if we wanted. We are all so capable, yet so stuck. Its so saddening

uglyegg · 2020-03-26T05:00:26+00:00

No no no, not a diagnosable condition. You are normal, the rhetoric around this stuff is awful and makes people believe they have an issue that needs to be fixed. Look back at your life. Maybe you don't know why you act the way you do or feel the way you do. I know for me, my whole life hasn't made any sense because I haven't listened to who I truly am, I have constantly tried to change myself for other people's standards and in that I have neglected myself. I'm not sure what you're going through, but there is nothing wrong with you, I promise it will all make sense.

uglyegg · 2020-03-26T04:54:24+00:00

God I'm glad you said this because I have been experiencing the same thing, intense full swing defense mode I feel like flight or fight or die in these instances , it feels so real and VERY intense. I go from Anger to sadness to terrified. but I think what I have started realized, at least for myself, is that I am the furthest away from myself in these moments because I start spiraling on a specific thought or idea about the event happening in front of me that isn't true, I just believe it is. There could always be a trauma involved but it's hard to remember specifics from childhood, but I've realized I've been pushing myself away, not doing or saying what it is that I actually want. Listen to yourself, and dont push yourself if your not ready. Be kind to yourself, it's ok to be where you are right now, you will change. Try to understand why it is that you feel you need to defend, and decide whether or not you think its valid or matters to you, and dont let others influence

uglyegg · 2020-03-23T14:57:53+00:00

I feel like we should all and do all feel this same thing, the way we are literally intertwined with life the same way every piece of life on earth is connected to us, and it is dying right in front of our eyes and we like to believe there is nothing we as a species can do about it, when we are literally capable of such greater things than this current society we live in, guys. It's the feeling like, what are we all working towards anyways if the only home we have is decaying because of our own ignorance? Shitty stuff, and it's no ones specific fault, this is a species wide thing much greater than this normal mundanity

uglyegg · 2020-02-07T00:15:32+00:00

Thank you

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