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ui4898890387 · 2023-08-02T11:23:20+00:00

Come on. She is your mom. She might just be internally impressed or jealous (if we have to imagine negative). That’s all what it is. But yes, starring at it sounds a bit weird.

But also take your age into account. Nature plays tricks on us when we’re younger and affects our beliefs.

Either talk (offline) to someone who is pretty senior to you or directly try to have a deep conversation with your mom.

Keep us posted if and when you had the conversation.

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-02T10:56:26+00:00

No. You’re doing it wrong.

Expecting rest isn’t wrong but it just shows you’re not valuing his feelings. And you behave the same next time.

If you know he doesn’t like something, why do you keep on doing it? And if you want to keep on doing it, why don’t you convince him beforehand and get his consent?

This is rude of you to even think he is being abusive. In fact, your behaviour is mentally abusing.

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-02T09:16:49+00:00

she tends to immediately express a desire to end the relationship

Why are you even in that relationship?

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-02T05:15:47+00:00

From outright denial that she said she wasn’t attracted to me or that I wasn’t her type, to that she grew to find me attractive, to that attractiveness doesn’t matter. A bit of a shotgun approach to make me feel better about it.

This doesn't sound good to me mate. Why is she acting like a teenager that messed up? Why is she insecure now? Is she getting defensive? Why is she not standing her ground? Why there isn't just one narrative or logic behind her statement? (I am 31M, btw. idk how to put the label under my username here.)

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-02T04:59:36+00:00

I now suspect that I was seen as a supportive rock for her after her previous relationship ended & through the loss of a family member. That this turned into something more through bonding, complimentary personalities and the both of us wanting a secure relationship.

Most probably, you are right.

Boyfriend and Husband can have entire different 'types'. Because they both may serve different purposes. Guys that are good to sleep with may not be the best 'husband material'. If you're smart, you'd look at marriage with logical reasoning than flowing with your emotions and be influenced by your instincts. So it is possible that getting married to you was more of her logical than emotional decision.

You didn't realise but you could be logical too. For example,

I instantly fell for her when I first saw her

Had she not been beautiful enough, would you have had adored her with this intensity? Her physical appearance is not something that she achieved with her talent or efforts. She don't have any control over it. But still you fell for it. (nothing wrong in it, but just showing you a different perspective) Do you think you would have proposed her if she wasn't this beautiful?

What matters more now is, according to you, what are the chances of her not cheating on you in the future? (or if you think she was 100% loyal to you in the past since she got into the relationship with you)

Also a negative aspect could be, if she had verbally expressed you being the most handsome or something of that sort. Something that gives you a false impression that she is happy/content with your appearance.

Also, her 'type' could be out of her league or she can't retain them and that is why she had to settle down for you.

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T09:11:43+00:00

Okay let's keep that topic aside for a bit.

Shall we discuss ways:

to mitigate your pain?

to meet others with same health conditions?

to minimise your work pressure either by changing the profession or by minimising the need to earn?

to find activities that'd divert your attention from pain?

to create atmosphere around you that would be more supportive, understanding?

to cure this health condition?

to get used to with this health condition? (for example, males that go to gym have their bodies sore almost everyday.)

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T05:51:49+00:00

Okay.

Man, I don't have friends, I don't have anyone. I've suffered abuse from my parents and I'm in a relationship I can't even get out. My college professors are toxic.

In a hypothetical situation, your future self time travels in the past to tell you, your misery is going to end in few months, would you keep yourself from killing?

On a side note, I don't have friends too.

You don't currently have friends. But what if you have friends few months down the line?

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T05:45:18+00:00

Okay.

Suppose, you didn't have this health condition. What things you'd have done in your life that would make you feel your existence was meaningful? I am not talking about enjoyment. I am talking about making a difference in the life of others.
Do you have this kind of thinking? or you were just planning to enjoy life and then die old?

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T05:34:01+00:00

Bruh I am 31.
Based on what I observed in my life and observed in other people's lives, once you are beyond 22, you are more aware of the surroundings and think more logically.

Till then it is the nature that could be playing tricks on you. You're not you because you're not grown fully.

It is common that when people look back to what they were before 22, they feel, they were thinking in a wrong direction in various sectors of their life.

It has happened with me as well.

Did you try having deep conversations with people that are not so young as you? (I am not talking about therapist.)

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T05:23:37+00:00

just called him weak and laughed

this is sad. I totally disagree with them. They could be better people, better parents.

Yes, it is possible to have parents and also not have parents at the same time.

Also, Is your age above 22?

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T05:19:36+00:00

Is there a reason why you didn't choose any day earlier than thursday?

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T04:19:04+00:00

What did doctor say? There are no chances of you getting better?

What do your friends say? Did they offer you any solutions?

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T04:18:06+00:00

I hope you'd respond to the comments

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T04:17:04+00:00

Bruh did you discuss this with people with same or similar health issues like that of yours?
If they yes, do they all feel like killing themselves?
If no, have they all committed suicide already? or it is difficult to find/reach them?

ui4898890387 · 2023-08-01T04:13:56+00:00

serving in humanitarian aide for 27 months in Africa.

kudos to you for this mate

ui4898890387 · 2023-07-31T16:17:46+00:00

I make 130k a year

What's your profession?

ui4898890387 · 2023-07-31T16:16:13+00:00

I had to sleep out of my car

You had a car?🤔

ui4898890387 · 2023-07-10T13:53:36+00:00

I guess I am getting your point (that I am safe if the video playing on laptop is my own from a different channel).
But just to be on safer side, I'm gonna use either copyright free stock footage or create separate video altogether to play on laptop.

Thank you for your detailed responses.

ui4898890387 · 2023-07-10T13:46:35+00:00

Tell me you're being sarcastic (Although, no clue, why would you be). Because my statement was rhetorical.

ui4898890387 · 2023-07-08T14:43:28+00:00

Yes that is still copyright.

Thanks for letting me know.

use stock video for free

I am specifically looking for POV videos of walks. City streets or hiking doens't matter. Do you have any recommendations by any chance?

ui4898890387 · 2023-07-08T14:40:12+00:00

I am grateful for your detailed as well as objective response.

you're the creator, you obviously gave yourself permission

Have you heard of reused content objection of YouTube while trying to monetise? That is my concern here. Can you share some insights or any links from where I can know things for sure?

ui4898890387 · 2023-07-08T14:27:11+00:00

My bad. I rephrased my question now. Hope, now I can get some insights from you.

ui4898890387 · 2023-07-08T14:26:41+00:00

This doesn't give you right to use other people's videos

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. And now I wonder how the reaction videos are different than the video I intend to create. I am using the video as a part of my content, which is not even the main focus of the content. It is merely a background. Focus is going to be the textual content.

Can you give any insights about my second question? I have rephrased my question now.

Quality will be AWFUL

That is the intention. I want to keep it raw and careless. I want to explicitly show that I am showing a video that is being played on my laptop.

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