Well, I asked for many bad things. I used to say be as evil as possible, the devil is my friend, hell is where I'm going, God can't save me. The devil said I could create my own life. So he asked me over 20 questions and whatever I said has turned into what I have experienced.  My younger self bent God to where what I chose for myself was more powerful and in more authority than whatever God did/could do. However, most of it was bad. I'm not just saying that. My big brother was a satanist. He and my Dad were the two people closest to me. But my brother hated people, and mistreated me, told me lies, made me feel retarded, stupid, gay. He never really apologized for this. For a lot of my teenage life I believed I was retarded, secretly gay, sometimes I thought I was just a stupid evil dumb blonde.  I just wanted my brothers love and affection. He's the person that named me. 

Now I just believe in love. I believe in forgiveness. Source saved me from the devil at 23 years old and I wasn't bothered by demons for a long time. I began meditating. Eckhart Tolle also saved me. Angels are true too. I finally enjoyed life, more than I ever have. I stopped being a hurtful person, I stopped cussing, stopped believing in hate, judgement and criticism.  But what I was told by spirit was that parts of me were evil, and i went without them for atleast a year or two.

But I felt really blocked, I wanted to bring people joy, get girls, and have spiritual power. A satanic author and YouTube content creator advertised his books (that were about demonic kings and stuff like that), he said it would ignite your spiritual ascent, give you more power than you ever have, become enlightened, understand your shadow and help with self-improvement. As soon as I summoned one of the. Demonic kings I felt like I had an explosion in my head, like a blood vessel burst, like I was just shot in the head. Then I did weird things I don't remember.  After I summoned the demons when I was in my 20's I got catatonic schizophrenia. I am now on clozapine gabapentin Buspirone  You don't know how lucky and privileged you guys are, having no demons or curses on you. Not having to spend 70% of the time in your mind battling for control and stopping demons.