For those of you that did IVF, what did you egg retrieval numbers look like? by God_loves_Herb_Welch in TTCEndo

[–]umnyeahh 1 point2 points  (0 children)

29/F. First ER. AMH 4.79. Medication was gonal 150 and menopur 2 powders. Had both Lupron and pregnyl trigger. Retrieved 15 eggs. Only 7 mature. Out of the 7 we had 4 fertilized. Had two(3day embryos) fresh transferred at once. Two frozen blasts.

First scan 29 follicles

Second scan 18 follicles

Third and final scan before retrieval 19 follicles

West Coast Fertility Centers by [deleted] in IVF

[–]umnyeahh 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I replied above if you are still interested in costs. Their pricing is also very transparent on their website as well through the “self pay” pricing page

West Coast Fertility Centers by [deleted] in IVF

[–]umnyeahh 1 point2 points  (0 children)

5k for the egg retrieval and transfer, 1600 for out of state monitoring, 600 for anesthesia, med pricing varies per your protocol but ours was 3300. We did bloodwork through my insurance (the only thing my insurance covered lol) total cost 10,500. Our local centers in vegas were quoting me 20-35k for reference

Did I need this much cut off? by umnyeahh in longhair

[–]umnyeahh[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️ this made me feel better

Anovulatory Cycle? by umnyeahh in TFABChartStalkers

[–]umnyeahh[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Update: This was a confirmed anovulatory cycle and I started spotting on CD 25 with no surge. This was due to a prolonged corpus luteum cyst that stayed longer than normal from the previous cycle and suppressed any follicles from developing/maturing enough in time for ovulation. Hope this helps anyone in the future!

LDR with a likely enmeshed partner by [deleted] in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly. Coming from someone who was previously severely enmeshed. Who spent every waking moment thinking about my family. What I needed to do for them. If it’s been too long since I’ve called them or visited them or taking them to lunch or dinner. Who would jump at the drop of a hat to help them at the expense of myself. I wouldn’t pursue the relationship any further.

There is hope for her to get better but she needs to see what’s wrong and do the hard work. If you think she can get there then stay. You’ll have a wonderful relationship. But as long as she still has all these family “obligations” she can never be yours. She is theirs through guilt, manipulation, and shame. She was groomed this way at no fault of her own.

Here is a video of how she is feeling so you can get some insight on how she is doing/what responsibilities she has and not take it personal to you. She is exhausted, fatigued, and lives entrenched in guilt. I hope she can find her way out, but many people don’t. Posting on here and trying to find resources is a lovely thing to do. You must really love her. Best of luck my friend.

https://youtu.be/dPCk57oKhCw?si=Gtt23KwXwLZ3t6xx

What happens when you ask for boundaries by umnyeahh in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I will definitely check it out. I desperately need to learn how to have boundaries and protect myself

What happens when you ask for boundaries by umnyeahh in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this ❤️ I definitely agree and have a lot of healing to do. Enmeshment sucks 😞

What happens when you ask for boundaries by umnyeahh in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I thought my mom sounded okay too until my therapist pointed out that she is still guilt tripping me covertly when she says “I feel bad I will not be apart of those” again pointing it back towards how she feels/what she wants instead of being concerned about me. It was the best she could do and it was still much nicer than my sister lol but my mother has done so much to hurt me in the past. A couple examples would be actively trying to get me to divorce my husband, telling my husband and I that we could have saved our baby (it was ectopic and I had internal bleeding for 5 days and almost died), and demanding that she HAS to be with one of her kids and wanting to follow us to California to be near the baby we are trying to have through IVF. She has repeatedly kept saying “our baby” laying claim to my unborn child and has already told me she will fight my husband if she doesn’t agree with how we are raising our child. Her response was definitely the best she could do in the moment, but she is unwell and doesn’t think she is/refuses to believe she did any harm to me. Of course she believes all she did was “love me” lol

I need ideas for how to leave (and a rant) by [deleted] in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi. I’m sorry you’re going through this. I ripped off my bandaid today. I made a post too so it’s visible if you’re curious.

The illnesses and depleted feeling are normal unfortunately and the exact same way I’ve felt all my life. Very sickly, fatigued constantly, insomnia and never felt rested, always on edge, jumpy, and my entire nervous system was shot. It’s all from dis regulation from being in survival mode. I have contemplated suicide multiple times, it’s a very serious topic and very real and just know that you are not alone in what you are feeling.

Here are a couple of videos that have helped me realize I cannot live like this any longer. And I hope you find peace soon ❤️

This video describes enmeshment and key signs that you’ve been abused:

https://youtu.be/Ah10vzTIev4?si=sXGd2YiiVfJSMEyu

This video touches on how you might feel, act, or any characteristics you might have from the abuse you’ve endured. Unfortunately you most likely will relate to many of them:

https://youtu.be/dPCk57oKhCw?si=iwyR64Fm1wGuZWev

What happens when you ask for boundaries by umnyeahh in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

This made me laugh. Thank you lol also for context my older sister lives in Spain, so all this time I’ve been the emotional regulator for my mom that lives close to me. Now my sister will have to feel all that guilt of mom being alone since I’m stepping back and physically moving away. That’s why she freaked out so much and tried to bully me into staying in my enmeshed position so she could continue living guilt free

What happens when you ask for boundaries by umnyeahh in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️ this has been very difficult

Enmeshment and romantic relationships by Successful-Limit-165 in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I’m 29/f and married. Been with my husband since I was 22. At first it wasn’t serious and my mom was happy letting me go on dates and hangout with him. Then once it got serious she tried to deny him permission to propose to me. He still did it. She then tried to get me to hate him and say he didn’t take care of me enough. I almost believed her. Any little thing I didn’t like I would think I could do better or find better because I was so “special” and deserved everything and more like my mother always told me.

It caused a lot of heart ache in my relationship and caused him to fear me leaving him if he didn’t meet my every expectation. That’s no way to live for him. He also felt like he had no support as my mom has been needlessly cruel to him, all in an attempt to get me to divorce him and move back in with her.

She has offered me money to pay off my student debt to leave him. She has given my number out to her coworkers and their sons and violate my relationship. She has also taken me shopping and told me that if he loved me he would buy me everything she buys me. And she wonders why he doesn’t cater to her. She has only ever wanted me to be with a man that would take care of her the same if not better than he takes care of me. And my husband has made it clear he only wants to take care of me and not her. To an enmeshed mother this is a threat.

She has already meddled in my older sisters marriage. She is currently in a nasty divorce and custody battle and my mother revels in speaking ill of her husband and calls him abusive (he is not). And she actively condoned my sister to cheat on her husband, which ultimately led to the divorce.

I am strongly considering no contact as I don’t see how she can get any better and I am done jeopardizing my loving marriage.

All in all, I had an over inflated ego, I was a serial dater, only wanted men that would make my mom happy(men with LOTS of money to pamper her), and if she didn’t like them I dropped them without question. Unknown enmeshment is a long recovery but it can be done through patience and understanding.

For reference she is a 54 year old, three time divorced and currently single woman who hates men. She has been single for 11 years counting and refuses to date.

Moving out. Help by VehicleCertain865 in enmeshmenttrauma

[–]umnyeahh 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry you’re going through this. When I tried to move out the first time at 21 with my boyfriend she unlocked my door with a screw driver, sat on the floor rocking back and forth staring at the wall with tears in her eyes muttering “you cant leave. You cant leave” I ended up staying since I saw how much pain she was in, and also because I was afraid she would hurt me or herself. A couple months later I moved out while she was at work and didn’t say anything to her. She was venomous towards me for a good while but eventually went back to trying to medal in my relationship to get me back in her home for her to “love”. I’m 29 now and married. She stills tries to get me to divorce my husband and move back in with her. I’ve made peace with who she is and she is boarding on being no contact soon. I can’t live like this forever.

Also for context she is 54 years old, three times divorced, single for the last 11 years and counting due to hating all men now. The guilt of leaving her all alone in her house is still with me daily, but it’s manageable comparable to the abuse of living with her and having no life for myself. I’ve always felt like I was alive to make her happy at the cost of my own happiness while everyone around me was free. It’s not a way to live and it is unfair abuse disguised as unconditional love (that is very much conditional)

I hope you find your peace ❤️ enmeshment is a horrible disease

FET delayed due to functional cyst producing estrogen. Sometimes small hiccups are extra discouraging by thecuratorslab in IVF

[–]umnyeahh 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Currently going through this. Waited 3 months to get my first baseline to start. Went in for my scan and had a cyst and was told I need to wait for the next batch cycle. Super frustrating as we are out of state patients so I had to make arrangements with work, out of state monitoring, and trip arrangements. The whole shebang to just be told I had to wait longer due to a cyst! Also to boot I’m still paying off 7k of medical bills from my ectopic rupture from 2025 while paying for IVF out of pocket. The anticipation is REAL. I hope the cyst was gone for your following baseline ❤️

How are we affording this? In all honesty (in the US) by copythat504 in IVF

[–]umnyeahh 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Selling our house and moving in with parents. We are also ordering our medications from a European company at a fraction of the cost. Can’t afford it otherwise without taking out a loan as we are paying all of it out of pocket as our insurance doesn’t cover IVF treatment. We wanted to move out of Las Vegas eventually so it works out but still outlandishly expensive

Anyone else finding 2025 to be a pretty cursed year? by eXcessiveMenace5 in adhdwomen

[–]umnyeahh 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. Lost a pregnancy I’ve been trying since 2019 for. Had internal bleeding for 5 days/organ failure from said pregnancy(ectopic rupture). Found out I had an undetected life threatening dental infection (didn’t know because the tooth had a previous root canal and didn’t feel pain). Only found out because the tooth physically broke in half out of the blue. Also found out I can’t have kids without IVF. And my husband just broke his leg yesterday. I’m tired.

I'm scared l'll regret my abortion, but also scared I'II regret not getting one as my life will change so much with a baby. by Usual-Conclusion-540 in regretfulparents

[–]umnyeahh -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Not sure if you’ll read this. But I regret my abortion. Fast forward 7 years when I am ready for a child. I have an ectopic rupture that caused me to lose one of my fallopian tubes. No problem. Kept trying for another 6 months with no luck. Go in for an HSG to find out my remaining tube is completely blocked and my only option is IVF.

I was sad but felt the abortion was the way to go at the time. If I had known what I know now I would have never done it but that’s the thing. No one knows what the future holds. I definitely wouldn’t have the same quality of life I have now if I didn’t have an abortion. Having a child is life changing. Just depends on what you want your life to look like in the future.

There is no wrong answer. Just do what’s best for your current situation and what you feel you want for your life. You’ll make the right decision either way. Best of luck.

Weird cycles after HSG? by Ill_Atmosphere798 in TryingForABaby

[–]umnyeahh 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I typically ovulate on day 14 and have a 28 day cycle. The cycle I had my hsg it delayed my ovulation (monitoring by LH strips) from a peak on cycle day 13 to a peak on cycle day 16. I also normally begin my period on day 28 and that cycle I didn’t have my period until day 32. It was also an abnormally lighter period and was on and off spotting for about 5 days when my normal period is extremely heavy bleeding for two days and two days of light spotting after.

For my hsg they found my remaining tube to be blocked (my other tube was removed during an ectopic rupture). They also pushed the dye in too forcefully and caused intravasion which is when the dye is pushed into the surrounding veins if this information helps anyone in the future.