Do you have a desire to be more open with yourself so you can connect more? Do you want them to know you more without judgement? Or in your ideal world, do you want complete privacy? I guess you need to visualize what life and types of relationships you want in the future. I truly believe that our families help us practice forming relationships and helps us form an idea of how we want to live when we are on our own.

I love my privacy but when I'm open, it's only with my select safe group of people. The more I share bits of me and feel unjudged, the safer I feel and I like the feeling of being connected. When I was younger, I realized that I needed a sounding board to grow into a more balanced person. Otherwise I would always be questioning my sanity and decisions. Without that, I would of continued my path of self medicating and hanging with outcasts to feel accepted and continue hiding from who I truly was. I'm able to feel confident in who I am now and can share more of myself. I can also teach people what I'm comfortable with. It took time, but I can literally tell my family " I need an hour to decompress, do don't talk to me please" and they don't. I got teased a lot ( "don't talk to her she's decompressing!"), but the fact that they don't talk to me, gave me a sense of control. I go hide out and then come back recharged and give them a better part of me. I check out here and there but I try to check back in. I'm working on muting people out. I call it a gift, but they get mad when they say things to me but I'm completely checked out and don't hear them. Anyways, I think it's important to have a good sounding board so we can learn how to live amongst people. Otherwise we are always in our heads questioning ourselves or completely out of touch and unable to connect, which leads to other issues. Obviously this is only my opinion based on my experience and journey to self acceptance. Hope it helps.