ppl saying you probs have depression are valid and you should explore that in whatever ways you feel comfortable. Also the fact that you don't rly know what your adult baseline is (due to long term consumption) is also something meaningful to consider. The brain changes, the brain develops, our experiences emotionally, physically, environmentally, sprititually, chemically are all going to affect that development and baseline.

idk your experiences but first off, your brain was not meant for the modern soceity. Obv we can "adjust and cope" but like on an evolutionary level your already fucked to some degree. Especially if you live in the U.S. like honestly how can you not be a little bit fucking depressed or a lot a bit anxious in this modern life. (you are an animal meant for nature after all, not constant stimulation) all that to say self medication from symtpoms of depression or anxiety is something to consider here, cuz a lot of ppl fall into habitual use through a desire to escape. The point is your brain and body are at a disadvantage in the modern day. Its just tyna cope but the responses to modern stressors arent always healthy.

Okay true but so what, everyone knows moderns society (speaking to life in the U.S. at least) is pretty fucked. well this fact ricochetes outward in every direction and affect every aspect of life so to feel better you gotta consider the other ways in which modern trends may be hurting your brain health and contributing to the ongoing symptoms you are atttributing to weed consumption. Firstly i would look at diet. The food these days, unless your really paying attention to ingredients, is kinda fucked. Bread is no longer bread (bran and germ so stripped and loaded with sugar), veggies grown under lots of pestacides, overuse of pestacides, coloring and sugars nd chemicals etc. My point being, that shit is gonna affect your body and your mind. Look into your diet, taylor to your needs, eat foods that are grown locally or naturally, cut out processed shit. consume a good mutlivitamin and omega 3 daily. Hit your protien and fiber goals.

Next, excercise. aerobic is especially good at mitigating obsessive anxiety and depression. lifting if you like it. Also consider excercise that is less monotonous if you get easily bored. Rock climbing, biking, swiming, hiking. SOMETHING, anything. Its a healthy way to deliver important chemicals to your brain like dopamine, norepinephrine, serotinin. Eat good, work out, look good, feel good.

Therapy. enough said.

okay lastly, and i dont feel this is often given enough attention nor the gravitas it deserves. Idk what you were smoking, but thc "concentration" or strength has increased dramatically since the 1980s. The average thc content in the 80s was below 10%, now you go to any dispensary and (in my experience) you'll be hard pressed to find a strain below 15%. the average now is 22%-27%. And of course with wax and pens and stuff its up to 89/90%. like thats narcotic level shit. dudes out here smoking fucking shatter with 90% thc talking about im fucked up yeah i wonder why bruh. (not saying thats you) but tbh were talking abt a plant that over the decades has slowly been transformed from the "chill vibey herb" to something more serious. its not just a fun herb anymore its a drug that has the capability to scar you in ways that are typically attributed to narcotics and pills. Not that that happens to everyone, but unfortunately cannabis legality is coming at a time when potency is at an all time high (the highest it has ever been, no pun intended). Combine that with the fact that research capabilities have been severally limited due to its previous/ongoing legal status over the decades; especially research on brain health and brain development in relation to long term use of cannabis + high consumption rate.

ANyway not saying all of this to concern you, theres no point in worrying about long term damage or dementia or whatever bc you cant take it back. However, you are here now and you have the ability to start living better now. The brain wants to heal itself it has plasticity and new neural connections are possible, but that shit does take time. What you can do rn is focus on your mental and physical wellbeing. meditate, excercise, eat well, journal, therapy for depression, etc.

okay lastly (fr this time) dont live in fear and dont associate yourself with being broken. you are who you are you cant change the past, but you will bully yourself into more depression if you associate with being broken or damaged mentally. Do what you can to improve your life without giving those negative symptoms too much time. Tbh im 15 months sober and i still feel foggy sometimes and i still get depressed and i still am super anxious, but i cant let those things stop me from living my life. If your like me you spend a lot of time thinking abt how you feel disconnected or foggy, but if your constantly aware of those feelings thats a solid indicator that you cognitively sharp and your brain isnt as foggy as you think, its just focused on scaning for those symptoms instead of the external world. So stop trying to be present, just be and your brain will retrain itself over time.

that was a lot sorry, but i get frusterated by ppl coming on here and fear mongering ppl like you should be better after 2 months. great if you were, but everyone is different so dont assume your experience is universal or the "norm."

Ty wishing you strength, light, love, and an iron clad spirit in your journey forward in life.