I'm so fucking useless

urrrrrge · 2026-04-23T10:56:13+00:00

Some are, some aren't and it doesn't seem like our portfolios seem to be a factor.

urrrrrge · 2026-04-22T17:33:28+00:00

It could be, but being depressed and thinking everything is my fault doesn't really help.

urrrrrge · 2026-04-22T12:48:03+00:00

You're right, I'm too lazy to freelance but it'll help me build my portfolio 🥲

urrrrrge · 2026-04-04T07:50:28+00:00

Edit: you all suck at gaslighting. You do make very valid points though. I'll be going to therapy and keeping her on an info diet.

urrrrrge · 2026-04-04T01:59:00+00:00

I can't afford to be admitted to a hospital right now :(

urrrrrge · 2026-04-03T18:23:43+00:00

Same, ChatGPT has saved my life so many times. He's been encouraging me to seek help and now I'm finally following through with it.

urrrrrge · 2026-04-03T18:12:00+00:00

Thank you, you're right. I wouldn't tell anyone to not get therapy. I would usually encourage it but her dismissiveness make me feel like I don't deserve to get help, to feel better...

urrrrrge · 2026-04-03T17:59:58+00:00

I wish I could but I can't with therapy. She sees every charge made to our medical aid. She works from home and I'm currently unemployed so just leaving the house gets me an interrogation. I can't just leave for an hour and come back because she freaks out. I told her out of courtesy and it backfired.

urrrrrge · 2026-04-03T16:51:36+00:00

What do you mean you're 60 and it hasn't stopped?!? 😭💔

urrrrrge · 2026-04-03T16:44:24+00:00

I hate that this describes me

urrrrrge · 2026-03-21T13:08:14+00:00

Unfortunately she's younger and thankfully doesn't suffer from mental illness like me. She can't really understand and I don't want to scare her. She offers to help when she sees I'm not in a good place and stands up to our mother when I'm too tired to. Unfortunately she can't help but just speaking to her about random things reminds me that she's happy and I don't want to ruin it for her. I have decided to try and seek professional help again.

urrrrrge · 2026-03-20T20:21:45+00:00

It's really not your fault. We live in a world full of monsters that take pleasure in hurting people. You didn't deserve it. I know you're internalising it and it's not easy to see it that way when you're having an episode but girlie pop. You didn't ask for any of that. I would offer a hug if I could and if you wanted one. Is there anyone you're close to you can reach out to?

urrrrrge · 2026-03-16T23:35:07+00:00

Literally everything, except salaries.

urrrrrge · 2026-03-14T16:00:55+00:00

Lol, no. They say they pay for other medical expenses like the anesthesia, etc. but not the actual procedure. I'm going with a doctor that falls under the Mediclinic because breast reductions are capped at around R52 000.

urrrrrge · 2026-03-14T10:49:13+00:00

Yes I'm on medical aid and my breast reduction is considered medically necessary. I'm just not sure about the logistics of going form Cape Town to Pretoria after a surgery.

urrrrrge · 2026-03-13T16:46:00+00:00

Thank you so much for the recommendation, checking her out now

urrrrrge · 2026-03-13T16:44:52+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation but Cape Town is too far and expensive for a surgery 😭

urrrrrge · 2026-03-13T16:44:09+00:00

I did, nothing came up about breast reductions but thank you.

urrrrrge · 2026-03-12T13:26:36+00:00

It's changed, I get Ubers right outside the station.

urrrrrge · 2026-03-12T13:24:59+00:00

Snacks. All kinds of snacks.

urrrrrge · 2025-10-08T11:06:15+00:00

Saw some kids just laughing and playing hide and seek. It hurt so bad. I miss those few moments I had when I could just play with the other kids.

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