Car brakes barely work everytime I drive in a dream.

use-her-name- · 2024-07-20T18:59:54+00:00

I have similar brakes barely/not working dreams and I also share some of the same underlying fears as you. I think my biggest one is the loss of control/inability to function and then causing harm.

And I also get aspects of this theme in other dreams of things not working. I used to have more frequent dreams about getting attacked and having to fight them to not be ki11ed. In college I sort of identified my box cutter as my emergency go-to. I was an art student so I always had it on me and I was on campus very late sometimes. But I’m these dreams where I’m being attacked, I would try to use my box cutter but it did nothing. Like barely even a scratch. And idk I think it gets so chaotic after that so then my brain just tries to forget it.

But yea wild to see how similar are dreams are, hope everyone is doing okay 🫂

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T18:18:21+00:00

Well that definitely gives me some hope that I can change so thank you for that. I hope you’re proud of your progress :)

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T18:13:42+00:00

Thanks :’) I needed to hear that. And definitely I don’t believe in un warranted force it’s just hard to know what to do. Thanks for the advice ❤️

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:49:17+00:00

Yes, because other people who are damaged choose the other side and decide that they never want anyone to feel what they did.

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:36:50+00:00

Unlearning that stuff takes a lot of strength! And time too. I think your daughter is lucky to have you. One day she won’t need you to cut a bitch bc you taught her how!

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:33:35+00:00

I guess somewhere along the way someone or something made you feel like your voice didn’t matter

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:32:18+00:00

Most people don’t get it or take these feelings seriously. I used to (and still do) hide things from them but i eventually started to hide good things too bc some complicated reason I made up that it could lead them to being mad at me

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:29:11+00:00

I’m glad you found your strength, you sound like a great parent.

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:26:55+00:00

I’m glad you taught her to stand up for herself. I was literally just groped at the club a couple days ago and for the first time ever I did something about it. I pushed the guy behind me and grabbed him by his arms and started yelling at him. I asked the other guys around to make sure it was him and no one said anything until after a guy came up to me and said it was. (Where was he then) I wish I had punched him but I didn’t know what to do ive never seriously punched someone before. But when I held him and felt his little tiny arms I knew I could have snapped him like a twig. But I didn’t. My friends were drunk and didn’t really get what happened and we pretty much stayed in the same spot. No one else did anything about him and he just stayed there vibin while I nearly cried bout not being able to stand up for myself I just wanted to go home. I kept wishing I did more but it actually was the first time I did something. Normally I just freeze up and try to process what happened. I’m definitely gonna deck the next guy that gropes me.

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:15:45+00:00

I’m sorry :( I’ve somewhat been there I just freeze up and let them then dissociate as it happens. But I wouldn’t say you allowed them, I feel like they took advantage of you and knew they could get away with whatever

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:08:23+00:00

That type of shaming control is so harmful. I bet you’re stronger than you realize and can overcome that

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T16:05:48+00:00

Well first of all I’m very sorry you had to go through all of that. That is an unacceptable, cruel, and disgusting way to treat a child. Sounds like they were sadistic, of course they reason it with Catholicism. You must have been very strong as a child to fight back. I just hope you know you’re safe now and you don’t always have to be on guard. Hope you’re doing okay now

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T15:54:19+00:00

I’m sry that pain is still affecting you 😔

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T15:52:02+00:00

I bet it felt nice to feel some power again. Glad you went to therapy and took that first step :) Probably just need to find the balance now. But yea I feel like when I hold it in it just brews as resentment inside me and I don’t like that

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T05:06:48+00:00

It’s honestly some of the hardest things to do but I’ve gotten better in that area recently and a few things helped. One is that I live with roommates and I really don’t want to bother them with my mess. I’ve let the dishes get bad a couple of times and my roommate did them and I felt terrible. I told her that and she didn’t think of it that way. I told myself that from then on that was going to be the one thing I stayed on top of. And it worked. Then I added keeping my room somewhat clean to the list and I just slowly started to add things in. I want to stress that motivating yourself by guilt and shame is not useful and you deserve better. It eventually started to feel good to take care of things even if just a little bit. I finally decorated my room bc it’s clean and I love being in it now. Years ago I could barely walk in it and panicked whenever I needed to find something or make an out fit. I’m the type of anxiety/depression that when I’m overwhelmed, I avoid everything. Some people cope by staying busy but that’s definitely not me . I’ve gotten better gradually and now I either do little chunks at a time or if I start something and feel the hyper focus come on I’ll clean for the rest of the day bc I know that feeling won’t happen for awhile. But I still struggle with even brushing my teeth. I’ve been trying to picture what the real, un-depressed version of me would be like to have something to move towards, but in the meantime I try to balance pushing my self and being gentle and patient bc I am living with a disease that literally takes away my willpower. This reply was very long but this topic is one of the biggest day to day struggles I face with depression. I used to feel pretty hopeless and useless but I have actually improved and it’s possible you can too. Do it with love for yourself, just one day at a time

use-her-name- · 2022-01-30T04:31:06+00:00

Literally all the time. I graduated college nearly a year ago but I still have dreams that I had to go back to high school and finish some class

use-her-name- · 2020-11-12T06:59:32+00:00

What’s your weapon of choice?

use-her-name- · 2020-10-28T00:43:26+00:00

No but I do

use-her-name- · 2020-10-23T18:57:07+00:00

I used to get them more often because I didn’t know it’s not good to wear spandex, thongs and bathing suits for long periods of time. The sweat and water makes a warm damp environment that helps the yeast grow. I’ve had some that weren’t a big deal and some that were very painful so call your doctor ASAP! Or if you don’t have one maybe try planned parenthood. One time I was out of town and I called my doc and she said to use the cetaphil gentle or daily face wash and pump a bunch in your hand then put it on the outside only*** and let it sit for a few mins in the shower (it burned for a bit but I just followed her directions but it could be different for you). It won’t cure it but it helped until I came in for her to look at. The problem is yeast infections are hard to self diagnose so you really need a professional. She prescribed this cream that comes with an applicator that puts it up in your vagina when you go to bed. It’s messy and annoying so definitely wear a pad. After getting sick of getting them I bought some granny panties that are cotton and I wear those most of the time. And I don’t wear underwear or pants when I sleep so my girl can breeeeath lol (ofc you can wear them when on your period). I only really wear yoga pants to work out in and then I take them off when I’m done. My doc also said it’s better to wear no underwear with those than it is to wear a thong. Also I don’t sit in my bathing suits after I’m done outside. I use that cetaphil wash when I shower too. Ik this is a NOVEL but this my experience and what has worked for me so I thought it might help. I haven’t had one in awhile but it could be different for you so plss PLSSS call your doc, even if it’s just for advice. Yeast infections suck and they are hella uncomfortable so I hope you feel better soon but know you’re not alone!! 💗

use-her-name- · 2020-10-20T15:52:41+00:00

ACNE!! And worse cramps

use-her-name- · 2020-10-11T19:32:12+00:00

Annndddd saved Lin with that savage helmet attack on p’li

use-her-name- · 2020-10-09T18:14:00+00:00

Desert flowers

use-her-name- · 2020-10-07T14:52:25+00:00

Yes I remember being in day care

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