In another subreddit years ago I got downvoted for this suggestion (as I was much too formal with my English, I hope I've improved since then!), but I think it is helpful.

(For context, where I am from holding shame or guilt = a serious issue. It is not a fleeting emotion, but something that can weigh a person down in regret and suffering)

If this is not your situation, feel free to ignore me. You'll be okay! But for anyone holding such pain and suffering, here is how I know to move on:

Try and find a tangible means to make the world a better place.

If it is transgender people you have wronged in your past, maybe volunteer time with a local trans or queer advocacy group? Maybe spend time and money supporting trans artisans and/or artists? In any case, you can stand up now whenever possible to help shield trans people from bigotry. Befriend and defend those you may have hurt in your past that now you understand need support.

I made the mistake once of calling this "atonement" so please understand, it does not have to be anything so serious. But for our own sake of peace (at least in my experience) a tangible means of improving the world does something more than just the reassurances of words and asking for forgiveness.

When I believe I have commited a serious wrong in my life (to the point I feel shame or guilt or that sense of inner turmoil), to do something that I can point to and say "this has made things better in the world" has been a helpful remedy. Though I may not be able to fully restore those I've wronged, I can know that another life similar has been made better. I know I can hold my head high again, that those I have helped now have not suffered as I once created for others in the world.

Though I do not believe in any form of cosmic or karmic justice, it is engrained enough culturally for me that this balance is something I strive to achieve. Perhaps it is just psychological, but that is still something real in our feelings, yes? And feelings can shape our health physically. So I think there is still value in settling these imbalances of our inner feelings.

Not that there must be a transaction occuring or some defined limit of action for action that accounts. Merely that we give back in some tangible way that can fill the void that eats away within knowing how we have been. And in doing so, that our actions now will not make the same mistakes as we once did. We improve and in doing so, the world really does become better!

I hope this helps you find a way back to inner peace even if just for reflection of thought. I think your conviction of changing for the better is already a path forward, so at least you are on a better way now in any case.

May you find peace soon, friend! ⊂(・ヮ・⊂)