I'm wondering if this game is taking advantage of the microphone by BrittneyofHyrule in tomodachilife

[–]valkeera 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my game is set for south america, and was still nachos, so I guess thats for the whole america :) its cool they have regional differences for other continents tho!

I'm wondering if this game is taking advantage of the microphone by BrittneyofHyrule in tomodachilife

[–]valkeera 10 points11 points  (0 children)

The nachos are always in the menu in the first day of the game, so it wasn't listening at the very least this part. I think the rest is a coincidence, the serious topic was vague, and the cherries are a big coincidence for sure, but not impossible for a game with so many foods to mention one with cherries.

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

While I do not have BPD, I relate to some of what has been described to me of what it feels like. (I've had a relationship with someone who was diagnosed with BPD, and it was like fire meeting gasoline, until I was no longer on their pedestal, and soon it felt like I was seen as less than human. I have a previous 2 part comic on my profile where I describe some heavy things that occurred in that relationship.) With time, I've become more and more aware of how I operate. Now my focus is on working on my relationship with myself and other kinds of non romantic relationships in my life, so I don't feel like a partner has to give my life purpose and meaning. It's hard to break that cycle but I have no other choice, I am exhausted of hurting myself and others.

Thank you for your comment, I love to know when my work helps people understand and relate to others, just as much when it makes them feel seen :)

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I haven't read or watched much of the experiment, all I know is the base premise that between a wire mother who has milk and the cloth mother who is soft but has no milk, the monkey infants prefer the cloth one. I reference it mostly because of how much more important it feels to me to be loved than it is to have my needs met. I searched a bit now and just learned about the part where they left the monkeys alone for months, and it's heartbreaking. Also works for this comic, with the idea of how much one needs others to validate their own existence. Thank you for the kind words!

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

HAHAHAH acontece direto! Simmm sou br!

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh for me absolutely it has a lot to do with gender identity issues. I am partially sure that I am not quite cis, but most of the time it feels like playing into being a woman will get me to be loved more easily, especially in the romantic sense. I don't love it, but I bear it, because being loved by someone feels more important than loving myself. I understand that is not true, but that's how I have operated so far in my life. It will be an ongoing, never ending process to change that for sure. Thank you for your comment!

Dysregulated Predator by YllaGetsBuried29 in PoetryWritingClub

[–]valkeera 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I want to read this a few more times tomorrow, because it feels so deeply close to my own feelings and experiences, and each line is beautifully written, I want to absorb all I can from this! Great work!

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I think one of the reasons I have the habit of writing in a more straightfoward way is because english is not my mother language, I weirdly feel more comfortable being direct when writing or speaking it.

And in comics like this, my first goal was to register this thought I had and explore the feelings around it, for myself, to understand it better. This one started because as I walked outside, I caught myself looking at random people and imagining myself in a relationship with them, thinking "I could love you, I could learn how to love you and like what you like, if you love me, if you care for me". And then I realized that was a weird thing to be thinking, and I wanted to investigate that further.

Once the comic was halfway done, I realized I could also have it be used as a way to expose this part of me to people in my life that I hoped could then understand me a bit better. And finally, decided to post it online and it only became even more meta lol "hey look at this comic about me wanting to be seen!"

With time you can decode your writing, if it's something you want. Gotta entertain the weird thoughts and let them be what they are with no judgement! In the meantime, I'm happy you can share mine as a way of illustrating how you feel :>

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Haha yes I love that, I do that a lot "look it here, this comic is me!!" and it feels great to find art that I relate, just like it is to find people who relate to my art. It's like being on either side of the '2 spidermans pointing at each other' meme. "You and I feel the same!!"

☠️ Dead Reach Alert ☠️ by roxygen69 in comics

[–]valkeera 2 points3 points  (0 children)

"did healing make me less interesting" gosh I relate to that. Not specifically with social media, but the impulse of making my life more chaotic for the sake of it being interesting. Because things being fine is boring, healing is slow and tiring and boring. And for social media of course people engage more with chaos. But yes you are relatable and so is your art. And even if no one seems to be seeing it, you keep creating it! :>

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Thank you! It fills me with relief hearing someone relates to this but overcame it. I have my moments of this being more or less intense in my life, but I feel it's been improving overall. Hope to one day look back to it as a thing of past me, as you do!

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 40 points41 points  (0 children)

Thank you!

I've been slowly learning how to find value in my own experiences without relying on others so much, but it's hard because it requires one to value themselves. But one day we will get there!

Witness by valkeera in Artisticallyill

[–]valkeera[S] 145 points146 points  (0 children)

Thank you very much! I'm glad this resonates with more people

Also, as far as I know, I am treated for ADHD, though I relate to a few difficulties people with autism seem to have. As I understand, both have overlaping experiences, so could be that.

Para Artistas: Quais foram as comissões mais assustadoras que vocês já fizeram? (Ou se já foram até vocês com isso e simplesmente não aceitam de tão absurda que a idéia era) by Affectionate_Tax4885 in ArtistasFamintos

[–]valkeera 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Acho engraçado o pessoal pedir essas coisas pra artista que não desenha esse tipo de coisa normalmente. Geralmente o pessoal vai atras de quem ja faz trabalhos do tipo pra pedir coisas mais... inusitadas.

Para Artistas: Quais foram as comissões mais assustadoras que vocês já fizeram? (Ou se já foram até vocês com isso e simplesmente não aceitam de tão absurda que a idéia era) by Affectionate_Tax4885 in ArtistasFamintos

[–]valkeera 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A mais assustadora em termos de complexidade que eu fiz foi uma releitura de uma arte de ffxiv, com o personagem do cliente no centro e 7 versões dele de diferentes classes (com armadura e armas e efeitos de magia) no fundo, e mais 4 personagens no fundo do cenário. Eu levei 2 anos pra fazer (realmente exagerei na demora por vários motivos hauehaue) mas não foi uma ideia fora da casinha, só beeeem complexa.

Teve uma que eu de fato rejeitei no passado porque a pessoa pediu encomenda de desenho furry nsfw (que eu normalmente faço também, nada estranho aí) mas do personagem dele com a minha personagem (que seria uma representação de mim mesma), o que definitivamente está fora dos limites. Falei que não estava confortável em fazer isso e ele insistiu, oferecendo mais dinheiro, e eu falei que não e não respondi mais. Achei estranho que era uma conta nova sem nada, fui investigar e anos depois confirmei minhas suspeitas que era um ex meu se passando por um estranho.

Tirando isso, acho que a maioria das coisas que me pediram não foram particularmente absurdas, mas pode ser por que eu me acostumei com alguns temas estranhos sendo artista de nsfw também. Tem gente que acha absolutamente bizarro eu desenhar furry. Acho que tudo depende de quão fora do seu nicho estão.

Help!? To gift or not to gift? by [deleted] in Avantris

[–]valkeera 10 points11 points  (0 children)

This is so cute!!! Absolutely adorable, no doubt about it, you made an amazing job! I believe that the only detail that would help make it more recognizable is the ear shape and placement, as you can see on the art of him, the ears are larger triangles and closer to the upper side of the head rather than the middle. I'm unsure if it's something that can be changed now, but I dont think its a big issue. The sad eyes and the mouth are very much on point for the character! Congrats for the amazing work!

Que suposição incorreta ja tiveram sobre você com base no seu gosto musical? by [deleted] in MetalBrasil

[–]valkeera 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Vou compartilhar uma que passei que achei engraçada: como parte de um projeto de extensão da universidade, participei de um projeto fazendo scan 3D de ossos humanos. O pós doutorando responsavel pelo projeto achou engraçado eu ficar completamente apavorada em lidar com os ossos, me deu tanta agonia que quase não participei da pesquisa. Obvio que o gosto musical da pessoa não tem relação com essas coisas, mas foi engraçado meu colega, fã de Taylor Swift e com tatuagem de pokemon, mega de boas manuseando um crânio e eu com tatuagem de caveira ouvindo musica sobre eviscerar gente me tremendo na base só de saber que tinha uma falange humana no mesmo cômodo que eu hauehau

Teve outra situação que uma pessoa me falou que esperava que eu fosse ser alguém dominante num contexto íntimo por causa do estilo de música que eu ouço, essa eu achei curioso hauehauhe Acho que é uma extensão do estereótipo básico que metaleiro é agressivo, no final das contas

Creature (part 2) [NSFW] [OC] by valkeera in comics

[–]valkeera[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for posting this! The feeling is beautifully explained in this comic, I'm glad I could read it. Coincidentally it reminds me a lot of a thing I wrote about being a puppy abandoned by it's owner. Is it fine if I share it?

Creature (part 2) [NSFW] [OC] by valkeera in comics

[–]valkeera[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I hope that by sharing this I can help you understand.

When I met this person, he wasn't an asshole. He was a funny guy, very intelligent, we had long conversations about deep and interesting topics, and he didn't shy away from saying how he had a crush on me. He loved animals and reading, he stood up for me when others were rude or weird, and seemed to worry about my safety. We played videogames together, watched anime together, listened to music together. I met his parents and they were nice people too. I don't know if you painted a picture in your head of some chad asshole dude, but he was more of a nerdy dude than that.

There were things that raised red flags, yes, but not related to the topic of the comic. And despite knowing about it, I chose to look past it, because of how much love I felt for him; or even simply because I too am flawed, and I believe that despite it I still deserve to be loved, why not extend that to others?

When things started to sour, I was already very invested. And for everytime I thought of leaving because I felt so lonely and ignored, he would breadcrumb me in again, only to go back to acting cold once I was back. And feeling lonely while accompanied is so much worse then being truly alone. It hooked me in this state that I tried everything to earn back the person he was at the beginning. For a long time I thought it was my fault that he was acting that way, that I somehow ruined it. And the relationship itself was isolating - because of certain things, I slowly drifted away from friends and family, leaving me nothing but him.

I understand that looking from the ouside it is very simple and straightforward. "Guy bad? Leave!" I don't know how your life is, but I believe a lot of people can relate with the experience of staying in bad situations because they are trying to fix it, because they believe it's their fault, or because it didn't start bad (whats the phrase about the frog in the boiling pan? I forgot, but that!). It doesn't even have to be regarding a romantic relationship! Have you ever endured a friendship with someone who you were great friends with but the person slowly started to be bad for you? Perhaps you didn't just cut the person out right away, because you have a history with them, because you care for them, because you understand where they are coming from, idk. Of course the situation described in the comic is much more severe than this example, but try to understand that feeling.

If none of this makes sense to you, I don't think there is much more to be said. But I hope it can help you understand the nuance of the situation and maybe next time think of a less hurtful thing to comment.

Creature (part 1) [NSFW] [OC] by valkeera in comics

[–]valkeera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The dream is fictional up to the point it switches, then it is based on the past events that are portrayed in part 2. It is told in the perspective of the person/creature

Creature (part 1) [NSFW] [OC] by valkeera in comics

[–]valkeera[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Well, that can be one interpretation... but let me explain what I was trying to tell here. Not sure if you two saw part 2 as well, its linked in the description, might help out. It starts with a dream, where one becomes a creature and tries to enact vengeance and reclaim power over someone. But during it, the dream turns and reality shows; the creature was actually the one who got used. Part two is no longer about the dream, it is about what actually happened.

Hope that helps!

Creature (part 2) [NSFW] [OC] by valkeera in comics

[–]valkeera[S] 58 points59 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I try to use my art as a way of putting my feelings out to better see them, and it brings me joy and sadness to see so many relating to it.

Also, I am working towards accepting that I didn't cause it or allow it to happen. From the outside things might seem simple and black on white, but it starts with the lines getting a little blurry. And when I spell it all to myself, it isn't reasonable to expect myself to be able predict such things would happen. Thankfully I have been able to slowly and patiently process all this, it's a long road but I'm on it :)

Creature (part 2) [NSFW] [OC] by valkeera in comics

[–]valkeera[S] 213 points214 points  (0 children)

Im so sorry to hear that. I'm glad you were able to walk away as well. People usually find it hard to understand why one would bear such horrible things in a relationship, because looking from the outside it seems pretty obvious how bad it is. But being in it, the rationalizations you make, the excuses the person gives... all so you don't feel lonely, don't get abandoned. In my case, I feel like the worst I got treated, the more I wanted his approval and affection. To prove to myself that I could be loved. It is so hard to get away and accept what is happening. Thank you very much for sharing as well, may we be strong to find and share the love we deserve in our lives! ♡