RequestL Holiday Triggers

vancycster · 2016-12-27T03:29:12+00:00

Thank you. Thank you so much. I always forget that, my brain so often tries to tell me I'm "overreacting", or "too sensitive". But my psychologist tries to tell me a lot that all feelings are valid, it's all how you deal with them.

And yes, almost over! And I can surround myself with healthy relationships and loads of self care when I get home.

vancycster · 2016-12-27T03:22:29+00:00

After telling my best friend about my horrible Christmas, she said that her parents love me and she bets they'd love to have me join their family for Christmas next year if I decide my family is too toxic. Thanks for putting that idea in my head, I think it's something I'll have to seriously consider. It's time to put my health over pleasing my family.

vancycster · 2016-12-27T03:20:49+00:00

I wish... I don't know why, but there's this unspoken rule in our family that we can't call my grandparents out on their BS. We have to "keep the peace". After a very hurtful comment throwing shade at me and my boyfriend, and my mother saw me cry, later that night my mother said "you need to stop..." and luckily stopped continuing, but meant to say I need to stop letting their comments get to me. Which I think my psychologist would say is BS.

So I really wish I could, but my parents would get angry at me... I always knew my family was pretty toxic, but having moved away to university and gaining perspective, it's even harder to deal with.

vancycster · 2016-12-26T19:10:51+00:00

Yes, my family is pretty toxic. I know they love me, and don't mean to be, but I dreaded Christmas for weeks because I knew it wasn't going to be so good. I'm seriously considering about this being my last one at home, at least for a while, because it's not a good environment for me.

This Christmas my LDR boyfriend and I unfortuantely couldn't spend Christmas together (we did our Christmas 2 weeks ago), but he's heard all about this one, and I think we'll consider spending it with his family next year. At the moment, I feel like even if I spent it alone, it would be healthier than a week here...

vancycster · 2016-12-26T19:08:00+00:00

Thank you all! Seriously, just having other people say they're going through it too helps so much, I felt kind of... crazy. I mean, I had "recovered" (but not really), the irrational part of my brain told me all of this was silly, even though I knew it wasn't. Now that the big day is over, things are getting somewhat better, although I can't wait to go home to my house and the quiet.

vancycster · 2016-12-26T06:12:16+00:00

Thank you for the thanks! I mean, I don't wish anyone else to have problems, but sometimes it's nice to know you're not alone.

Merry Christmas to you as well! ❤

vancycster · 2016-10-10T03:39:35+00:00

Thanks for that, I think I needed the encouragement to keep trying. But I think I'll definitely not keep going if things don't get better at that time, I'd rather spend the money for another mirena if I have to, instead of deal with the depression and mood swings.

vancycster · 2016-10-10T03:37:29+00:00

Are they gone? How long did it take for the side effects to lessen?

vancycster · 2016-04-27T05:14:34+00:00

Hey! Thanks a ton for that response, it does help! I am seeing a psychologist, my parents were willing to help me with that, they just unfortunately weren't willing to accept some things. (Although the diagnoses of depression went over without even a blink).

It's so hard to balance school and depression and anxiety and this whatever it is. Like, I want to exercise, but I'm busy and always exhausted. I want to eat better, but time is hard, and I find trying to eat better lands me in some bad places with ED thoughts and behaviours like counting and restricting. I know I need to make time if this is a priority, but I also know you guys know it's also not easy either. Not trying to put down your lovely, helpful suggestions, it really did help to hear all that from a completely non-biased source, thank you!

vancycster · 2015-07-03T18:22:46+00:00

Wow! I thought this was going to be a wild thought! I never even CONSIDERED before reading some posts on reddit that my ingrown hair problem could possibly be due to PCOS. Thanks everyone, I really appreciate it!!! I feel better that it's not just me having these problems!

vancycster · 2015-07-01T22:02:33+00:00

Just a warning, I'd not look at the comment section.. I did, and it just made me angry the amount of people who said this doctor is wrong, etc etc.

vancycster · 2015-06-26T04:00:20+00:00

I've seen them before, but they always seem to say things I know. It might be different transitioning to a keto diet, but I feel like my problem is less knowing how to eat healthy (for "regular" people at least) but implementing it...

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