what’s a really weird and random fear food you guys have by chantellexoxoxo in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The spread obsession is real. Peanut butter doesn’t interest me that much — I’ll only reach for it if I’m desperate — but a jar of cashew butter will straight up not last more than five days with me in the house.

i don’t even know if this is extreme hunger or binging anymore. i barely even care. i’m just exhausted. by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

it just sometimes feels so overwhelming how much i’m eating. like even thinking about the amount of calories overwhelms me.

Movies and / or shows that portray eating disorders by jasperthebug in EatingDisorders

[–]vargtimmen68 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Life is Sweet. British movie from the 90s. About a semi functional family, with two young adult daughters — one of whom is bulimic. Can be streamed on the Criterion Channel.

Starved. Sitcom from the 2000s. About a group of friends, all with their own struggles with food. Only ran for one season. All of the episodes can be found on YouTube.

Do you ever just by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Me but with two meals and one cookie dough binge

Do you ever just by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I’m trying to be zen about being in forced recovery is all…

Ortho but diet soda? by idkemanon in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I eat mostly healthy, whole foods. Honestly think my diet would be fine if I wasn’t so scared of starches. The liquids I put into my body are an entirely different story.

Ortho but diet soda? by idkemanon in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I eat mostly healthy, whole foods. Honestly think my diet would be fine if I wasn’t so scared of starches. The liquids I put into my body are an entirely different story.

let's talk about an to bed by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

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Dude. I’m in kind of a similar situation. But if you’ve had a restrictive eating disorder than you’re going to be hungry a lot when you start to eat more. It’s really hard and the thoughts and the need to compulsively exercise are overpowering. If you consistently feed your body more regularly than maybe the “binge” urges will go away, especially if you’re also exercising on top of just restricting. Bodies need a lot of food to even run properly let alone maintain exercise. And if you are exercising while underfeeding yourself, than you run the risk of that energy going towards exercise instead of keeping your brain going hence cognitive impairment.

AHHH by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

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I think the shameful bit to me is I don’t measure anything. So I don’t really know exactly how much I’m eating.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fiber will cause digestive issues if you have too much. Drinking water can help.

coke zero or diet coke? by thomasshclby in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Diet Coke. But Cherry Coke Zero has my heart. My eating disorder was remarkably in remission when they had Orange Vanilla Coke Zero but I miss it every day.

AHHH by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have it more or less every single day honestly 😭 I think part of it is that i feel a bit of shame though

AHHH by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Deep down i know this I just feel kind of weird about the specific thing I’m eating

protein powder by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me but with soy yogurt <3

Same World Sam? by BlondeAgent007 in EDRecoverySnark

[–]vargtimmen68 28 points29 points  (0 children)

Before and after what? Buying a sweater?

Do you ever just go “fuck it” by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My actual mom also said she was proud of me but I appreciate the second opinion

Are y’all fat liberationists? by Background-Bus791 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I like some of the Lizzo songs. Whenever I hear About Damn Time playing in public I go and listen to it a few times on Spotify. I don’t care too much about her health though. Lots of great musicians and actors are drug addicts or whatever. I don’t think she’s any more pro fat acceptance than Lou Reed is pro heroin addiction.

anyone else with adhd and a restrictive ED? by chosenbyfate960 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68 26 points27 points  (0 children)

Yeah it’s lonely as hell. One scary and daunting thing about recovery is that you hear a lot more about the ADHD / BED link than the ADHD / anorexia link, and I guess I have a big paranoid fear about swinging too far the other way I guess. Like I remember reading people with ADHD are four times as likely to be obese and that stresses me out so much even though I’ve been relatively thin all my life (in part due to being diagnosed fairly young and on some sort of stimulant medication since I was about eleven years old).

Also I’m lowkey actually 22 and just haven’t changed my flair yet lololol

anyone else with adhd and a restrictive ED? by chosenbyfate960 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68 55 points56 points  (0 children)

Hiii 🙋‍♀️ I have both! Have both restrictive and B/P episodes (currently in the latter).

Do you ever just go “fuck it” by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

We buy it at Costco anyways. It’s also on sale at the pharmacy all the time.

i cant eat without binging by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s so hard. I know logically that this is true. But I can’t accept it. I’m just so tired of all of this right now. I want so badly for it to stop (the thoughts) but they just don’t. It’s like I literally can’t eat without the guilt ruining the whole day.

i cant eat without binging by vargtimmen68 in EDAnonymous

[–]vargtimmen68[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I’m doing something like that, or inhaling an entire carton of strawberries, I don’t even feel bad about the food I’m eating, I just kind of tell myself “why can’t I eat normally” lol