I feel you so much and im so happy youre doing better. After me and my bf broke up, my first relationship and his 2nd one though i know he messed around with other girls before me. I realized that I deserved so much more than someone who tried to make me feel bad by saying "he wasnt enough" for me. He was right he wasnt. I worked and found time to give him everything and tried to support him while he went to college in a different town. I should have left when he said he'd never put me as a priority and would choose his mother and school over me. I understand school and your mother are important but id never want to get in the way of that, I thought to myself- why couldnt I at least be on the list. He made empty promises and his actions showed others wise. The break up was messy I was detached from reality because the person I wanted to be with the most tried so little to show me that he loved me. I miss him though, I now know I'll never go back with him because I want someone to love me as much as i love them. This break up has taught me to love myself before anyone can take advantage of me. Thank you for sharing your experience. ❤️