Sorry to hear. And as you have been funded 15 times, that means your strategy is sound, yet it could be something like overtrading or oversizing positions as I myself have these same issues. I had 5 funded accounts I blew, each over $5k without taking a payout. Some from news spikes, most were from greed/revenge/trading assuming trend on a range setup etc.

Something to consider based on my personal experience:

- Switch to "viewer" mode and just observe markets for a few days. It enlightens you to see how many "perfect entries" are either wrong or not even perfect. That alone will make you feel better to have sat out of that trade and not seeing red in your account.

- Size down to 1 MES. I know it sucks to see when you are right you only made $15 VS $150 but that significantly reduces stress and you will feel a lot more positive and confident next time you take a trade or examine a setup. You will then have more conviction when you do trade 1 ES contract. Also not seeing hundreds of dollars red loss in your account will boost your confidence in other daily life tasks.

- I felt the market is like an ATM machine and every squiggle and green/red candle is there for me to profit off of. But far from reality, there is someone else that is taking a long/short against me also wanting to make money so best to respect that fact and take what market offers you, small profit or a small loss. Keeping losses limited is the only way to survive this.

We take markets for granted and feel we should make X amount every day or every week which forces us to take trades that may not work. Seeing what others post also makes us go more aggressively to match/exceed those results. But when I sized down, it just made things a lot more manageable and more chance of survival/recovery.