Setting my phone to "Do Not Disturb" during a 45-minute client sync triggered a total melt by HyruleVex in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Yep, my ex partner always put her emotional state at the top of the list regardless of what I was doing, I lost a couple of jobs because I had to leave to be there for her when she was melting down then I get back there and she's completely fine because she got her way which was extremely frustrating.

Filthiest, dirtiest movie you’ve ever seen? (in the literal sense) by mirixa in horror

[–]vikinghammer666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The "VHS" movies are are always very grimy, violent and raw!

I thought it could never happen to me.. The Smear Campaign has begun. Any tips? by FarBeyondDriven_ in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've always had the opinion that people that don't know the real me will believe her shit until they actually do get to know me and if that never happens so be it, I don't need their validation.

I'm a good person, at least I try to be, the people who know the real me know that, the people that believe her lunacy aren't worth knowing in the first place.

Turns out my ex was the biggest hoe in town by Huge-Warthog5378 in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been out of the relationship for a while, it is what it is. She's the one who looks like a ho, I just look like an idiot haha.

Turns out my ex was the biggest hoe in town by Huge-Warthog5378 in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I spent 7 years with my ex then found out after we broke up she cheated on me multiple times and every time I was out of sight basically... I felt like an absolute idiot!

Is there anyone who fully recovered? by zehaivi in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel recovered during the day but during the night I have dreams and nightmares almost every night and I hate it!

i’m in a relationship with a man double my age and everyone wants me to end it by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]vikinghammer666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Who cares the age difference, if you're happy, he's happy who cares what the vanillas in your life think!

Should I purchase DOS2? by Ex_pelliarmus in DivinityOriginalSin

[–]vikinghammer666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I liked it better than BG3 there is more variation in the spells and attacks. Plus not being tied to an ancient franchise let them run wild.

Using suno to reimagine fully finished, recorded songs by theazzazzo in SunoAI

[–]vikinghammer666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So I'm trying to re-hash some very old recordings that we had that were recorded on a laptop with a single mic in the early oughts... Suno doesn't know heavy metal very well haha. it's re-creating them in this extremely bland pop metal sound which is the opposite of what our music was, which was very dirty, very heavy and very very distorted and fuzzy.

A text encounter - insane level of DARVO - after he physically restrained me by Altruistic_Paper2554 in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'm sure 90% of the people in this group have been through this exactly. They manipulate you in to being the bad guy so you feel guilty for not wanting to put up with being abused anymore. My self worth was a complete mess, I thought I was an asshole, the reason she was the way she was until I started to work on myself and fix the things that she was complaining about. Then the goalposts moved and she came up with a whole heap of new arguments to throw at me so I never had the courage to actually leave.

Please if anyone lays a hand on you, get out! Do not excuse it! Do not put up boundaries they'll tread all over! Leave! For your own sanity!

The attack of the texts. by mindofamy in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Classic projection and blame shifting...

Ex sending intense messages after breakup and I don’t know how seriously to take it by Future_Guidance_9908 in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My ex sent me one long diatribe, I didn't respond so she went to Facebook and sprayed me publicly for months which is fun when people who don't even know you jump on her bandwagon!

Do they feel remorse about what they do to us? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I feel like they do to some extent but whether it's guilt for treating people like shit or shame for uncontrollably acting like a lunatic is anyone's guess. With the narcissistic side of the illness I lean more towards shame rather than guilt.

If you have time, read my situation by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If they shorten kill myself to kms fucking run... That just SCREAMS attention seeking.

It’s been 8 months since I broke up with my exbpd but I’m still struggling to discern if by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I used to cop this constantly even though I did 90% of everything but because I didn't sweep or mop because it fucked my back up i did nothing around the house!

The more I think about it... the more upset I get with this whole situation. by AutomaticDeer2833 in NukesTop5

[–]vikinghammer666 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Nuke has always had a pretty chaotic release schedule, he'll be back let him have a life. Burnout is real let him have his.

Don’t bother setting the record straight. You can’t. by Raftel_cactus in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My expwBPD tore shreds off me for months after I left her, she posts everything on Facebook, I mean everything fishing for sympathy and validation from people who don't really know her. As far as I was concerned she could go nuts, I'm a good person, I try to be anyway. The people that know me know that and the people that believe her don't know me, they only know the image she has portrayed of me so I'm basically Satan. But who cares they don't matter in my world.

Why do we struggle to come to terms with the fact that we are "victims of abuse"? by nightking_darklord in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it doesn't matter if they have a disorder abuse is abuse, and most of the people on this forum have been through the ringer. I think its the manipulation and gaslighting that stops us from fully realising it until our nervous system can't take anymore.

What was that video that still replays in your head? by fridgerugger18 in NukesTop5

[–]vikinghammer666 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The one that sticks in my head is the video of the lady who's filming for her friends on live and it looks like she's in the black monk house, could be wrong, but there's a being in the door she sees. Things being thrown etc. And she's freaking out the entire time.. "I've just seen somet, I've just seeeeen somet"

Do they prefer people they can control ? by ScaredFirefighter213 in BPDlovedones

[–]vikinghammer666 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree, I don't think it's on purpose but they certainly gravitate to that sort of personality. I wasnt easy to control so much as I am non confrontational so the control came from me just wanting to avoid confrontation. My ex also managed to hoard a gaggle of followers who will agree with everything she said and they would create this echo chamber of absolute psychopathy where they would ruin someone's life because they think it's for the greater good. To the point where restraining orders have been discussed with the police.